xander (tw vent acc)
@rinventingalt.bsky.social
xander or killian
venting account
trigger warning for discussing sa, sh, and more
venting account
trigger warning for discussing sa, sh, and more
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if anyone does happen to stumble upon this, it's my vent account. tw for all sorts of vent things. due to it being a vent account, I will not tag each post with a trigger warning. please be careful interacting with this account! much love and stay safe. never be afraid to reach out if you need it.
I relapsed a bit ago and the marks are finally fading which is nice I can wear shorts again soon
December 29, 2025 at 2:58 PM
I relapsed a bit ago and the marks are finally fading which is nice I can wear shorts again soon
I don't want to get older let me be fourteen forever and let everyone else stop aging too I just want to pause it
December 29, 2025 at 2:57 PM
I don't want to get older let me be fourteen forever and let everyone else stop aging too I just want to pause it
I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't
December 29, 2025 at 2:57 PM
I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't want to grow up I don't
i don't want him to ruin my life lol I did all that shit because I wanted to be desired so baddd this sucks
November 20, 2025 at 4:01 PM
i don't want him to ruin my life lol I did all that shit because I wanted to be desired so baddd this sucks
nothing feels right but everything is perfect
November 18, 2025 at 1:55 AM
nothing feels right but everything is perfect
I only live to take what hurts and hard it to the world. I cannot sorrow without televising it. sometimes I can't feel the pain because I'm too busy wondering how it'll look to others. how can I be both sad and emotionless at the same time
November 9, 2025 at 2:50 AM
I only live to take what hurts and hard it to the world. I cannot sorrow without televising it. sometimes I can't feel the pain because I'm too busy wondering how it'll look to others. how can I be both sad and emotionless at the same time
woops forgot I wasn't on main
October 22, 2025 at 3:12 AM
woops forgot I wasn't on main
my gf doesn't even want to talk to me lol
October 21, 2025 at 10:22 PM
my gf doesn't even want to talk to me lol
the concept of that I am alone in how I feel and no one will truly understand me I will constantly be seen as the stain of humanity
a woman with a shaved head covering her face with her hands
ALT: a woman with a shaved head covering her face with her hands
media.tenor.com
October 21, 2025 at 7:40 PM
the concept of that I am alone in how I feel and no one will truly understand me I will constantly be seen as the stain of humanity
I was hyped for weeks for this day. weeks. n I did nothing. all for what
October 19, 2025 at 11:49 PM
I was hyped for weeks for this day. weeks. n I did nothing. all for what
I hate this I hate myself I hate and hate and hate I will never stop punishing myself
October 19, 2025 at 11:48 PM
I hate this I hate myself I hate and hate and hate I will never stop punishing myself
life is okay wait life isn't horrible there's always a way to fix what's aching in myself
October 18, 2025 at 11:25 PM
life is okay wait life isn't horrible there's always a way to fix what's aching in myself
I can't fix things I can't fix them what am I supposed to do if I'm not fixing what am I supposed to exist for I was supposed to die in the womb and the only reason I was born was to help people if I can't help them I should just die
October 18, 2025 at 8:53 AM
I can't fix things I can't fix them what am I supposed to do if I'm not fixing what am I supposed to exist for I was supposed to die in the womb and the only reason I was born was to help people if I can't help them I should just die
I miss my girlfriend
October 18, 2025 at 7:53 AM
I miss my girlfriend
I just really hope each of my close friends stop hurting I would do anything for that. yeah I care for my mutuals and I want their lives to be painless but I think it'd be neat if I took all my oomfs problems and then just died with them
October 18, 2025 at 7:52 AM
I just really hope each of my close friends stop hurting I would do anything for that. yeah I care for my mutuals and I want their lives to be painless but I think it'd be neat if I took all my oomfs problems and then just died with them
I hope keith is okay man I feel really bad for him I think the whole situation is fucked up and keith isn't blameless but neil is. being REALLY weird. idk I feel bad
October 18, 2025 at 7:50 AM
I hope keith is okay man I feel really bad for him I think the whole situation is fucked up and keith isn't blameless but neil is. being REALLY weird. idk I feel bad
i want to take away all my friends' pain and experience it for them. I want them to be happy and I want to be punished
October 18, 2025 at 7:49 AM
i want to take away all my friends' pain and experience it for them. I want them to be happy and I want to be punished
KILLING MYSELF IS OFF INVINCIBLE SEASON 4 TEASER TRAILER
October 11, 2025 at 12:17 AM
KILLING MYSELF IS OFF INVINCIBLE SEASON 4 TEASER TRAILER
criiiiiinge! cringe. I'm gonna watch something now
October 11, 2025 at 12:12 AM
criiiiiinge! cringe. I'm gonna watch something now
“so you don't worship the christian God anymore? not judging, just curious!” God looking at that it does look like judgement it looks like I'm judging them I'm not I'm not I wasn't please I love you please don't think I don't love you anymore fuck religion fuck god i'd do anything for you anything
October 11, 2025 at 12:12 AM
“so you don't worship the christian God anymore? not judging, just curious!” God looking at that it does look like judgement it looks like I'm judging them I'm not I'm not I wasn't please I love you please don't think I don't love you anymore fuck religion fuck god i'd do anything for you anything
I just feel slightly lonely again, not superior in the slightest. rin with his weird views of religion, rin who still cries and begs god to listen again even though he hates how it makes him feel
I hope he knows I don't think of them less for this. it would kill me actually. it would kill me if they felt unsafe. it really would
October 11, 2025 at 12:09 AM
I just feel slightly lonely again, not superior in the slightest. rin with his weird views of religion, rin who still cries and begs god to listen again even though he hates how it makes him feel
I remember when I wrote that poem for her, after shaking and crying. because for the first time in a while I hated religion and god fully. I wanted to hurt everyone who believed in the thing that hurt them. and now I'm just staring off ahead wishing that I still didn't crave to believe
October 11, 2025 at 12:07 AM
I remember when I wrote that poem for her, after shaking and crying. because for the first time in a while I hated religion and god fully. I wanted to hurt everyone who believed in the thing that hurt them. and now I'm just staring off ahead wishing that I still didn't crave to believe
I guess it feels scary because. hey. that's my favorite person. and it was nice we shared similar views in that field. and my view on them as a whole doesn't change, FUCK the people who change their thoughts towards someone cos of this. but? like? idk. I felt seen. I just hope they're okay
October 11, 2025 at 12:04 AM
I guess it feels scary because. hey. that's my favorite person. and it was nice we shared similar views in that field. and my view on them as a whole doesn't change, FUCK the people who change their thoughts towards someone cos of this. but? like? idk. I felt seen. I just hope they're okay
I didn't think like always
October 11, 2025 at 12:03 AM
I didn't think like always
I hadn't known
October 11, 2025 at 12:02 AM
I hadn't known