kind of feel like I've been biting on the stick of an ice cream bar
January 30, 2026 at 7:58 PM
kind of feel like I've been biting on the stick of an ice cream bar
I love how my mind is so toxic and full of shit that I'm constantly surpised of how bad a person I am
January 29, 2026 at 11:18 AM
I love how my mind is so toxic and full of shit that I'm constantly surpised of how bad a person I am
software rendering is sick
read Fabian Giesen's blogpost on optimizing a basic rasterizer
fgiesen.wordpress.com/2013/02/10/o...
and now I have:
69 fps 1920x1080 46k tri slightly mangled 2b
read Fabian Giesen's blogpost on optimizing a basic rasterizer
fgiesen.wordpress.com/2013/02/10/o...
and now I have:
69 fps 1920x1080 46k tri slightly mangled 2b
January 20, 2026 at 10:35 PM
software rendering is sick
read Fabian Giesen's blogpost on optimizing a basic rasterizer
fgiesen.wordpress.com/2013/02/10/o...
and now I have:
69 fps 1920x1080 46k tri slightly mangled 2b
read Fabian Giesen's blogpost on optimizing a basic rasterizer
fgiesen.wordpress.com/2013/02/10/o...
and now I have:
69 fps 1920x1080 46k tri slightly mangled 2b
compile times so long I goon
January 20, 2026 at 11:45 AM
compile times so long I goon
computers are so fast you can literally write a shitty unoptimized software renderer and render a slightly mangled 2b at 60* fps 640x360
*as long as she isn't tilted...
*as long as she isn't tilted...
January 15, 2026 at 9:55 PM
computers are so fast you can literally write a shitty unoptimized software renderer and render a slightly mangled 2b at 60* fps 640x360
*as long as she isn't tilted...
*as long as she isn't tilted...
don't know how or why but I'm currently in a weird superposition of "completely fine, positive, logical and working semi efficiently" and "feel like I'm about to cry and puke"
almost like some emotional wires have been crossed
almost like some emotional wires have been crossed
January 15, 2026 at 12:08 PM
don't know how or why but I'm currently in a weird superposition of "completely fine, positive, logical and working semi efficiently" and "feel like I'm about to cry and puke"
almost like some emotional wires have been crossed
almost like some emotional wires have been crossed
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
I'm not built for having my landlord walk outside my window talking to someone and constantly be on edge in case he so happens to have to talk to me
I'm not built for having my landlord walk outside my window talking to someone and constantly be on edge in case he so happens to have to talk to me
January 14, 2026 at 9:13 AM
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
I'm not built for having my landlord walk outside my window talking to someone and constantly be on edge in case he so happens to have to talk to me
I'm not built for having my landlord walk outside my window talking to someone and constantly be on edge in case he so happens to have to talk to me
weird how I've gone from forcing myself to sleep before 3 am to "why can't this day be over already, I want to sleep" at 8 pm
January 12, 2026 at 8:59 PM
weird how I've gone from forcing myself to sleep before 3 am to "why can't this day be over already, I want to sleep" at 8 pm
Kind of funny to rewatch the Jinwoo vs Goto fight ~1 year later and realize I have gone from "I really like Cha" to "I kind of would want to experience what it be like to be Cha in that episode, except I wouldn't want to act myself because I would fail horribly"
January 11, 2026 at 2:32 PM
Kind of funny to rewatch the Jinwoo vs Goto fight ~1 year later and realize I have gone from "I really like Cha" to "I kind of would want to experience what it be like to be Cha in that episode, except I wouldn't want to act myself because I would fail horribly"
Was wondering why stomach decided to rebel against me, because it rarely ever happens anymore, only when I'm really stressed about something.
Then I remembered my dad told me he might visit today and I had to scram and try to prepare for that possibility and then "politely" decline when he called
Then I remembered my dad told me he might visit today and I had to scram and try to prepare for that possibility and then "politely" decline when he called
January 10, 2026 at 1:18 PM
Was wondering why stomach decided to rebel against me, because it rarely ever happens anymore, only when I'm really stressed about something.
Then I remembered my dad told me he might visit today and I had to scram and try to prepare for that possibility and then "politely" decline when he called
Then I remembered my dad told me he might visit today and I had to scram and try to prepare for that possibility and then "politely" decline when he called
I'll never actually be good at drawing, but it's still that I'm good enough to pause an anime and draw something that resembles what I see
January 9, 2026 at 10:54 PM
I'll never actually be good at drawing, but it's still that I'm good enough to pause an anime and draw something that resembles what I see
So I guess this is my attempt at an oc?
January 3, 2026 at 9:46 AM
So I guess this is my attempt at an oc?
So I've now basically confirmed that I cannot be happy if I'm not working towards making somehting that matters to me.
Like I go from not caring whether I'm happy, sad or want to die => joyfull and full of life.
It's like my emotions are just useless noise without a project to ground them
Like I go from not caring whether I'm happy, sad or want to die => joyfull and full of life.
It's like my emotions are just useless noise without a project to ground them
January 3, 2026 at 8:17 AM
So I've now basically confirmed that I cannot be happy if I'm not working towards making somehting that matters to me.
Like I go from not caring whether I'm happy, sad or want to die => joyfull and full of life.
It's like my emotions are just useless noise without a project to ground them
Like I go from not caring whether I'm happy, sad or want to die => joyfull and full of life.
It's like my emotions are just useless noise without a project to ground them
I love how every time I go to sleep with more certainty about my identity, I wake up feeling confused, not knowing shit and realize I can't even trust what I thought was the bedrock of my identity...
Fuck me
Fuck me
January 1, 2026 at 9:49 AM
I love how every time I go to sleep with more certainty about my identity, I wake up feeling confused, not knowing shit and realize I can't even trust what I thought was the bedrock of my identity...
Fuck me
Fuck me
Funny how I went from "I can never be trans" to "estrogen would be kind of cool" by removing the concerns of passing and "the shame of pretending like I am a trans girl"
January 1, 2026 at 5:32 AM
Funny how I went from "I can never be trans" to "estrogen would be kind of cool" by removing the concerns of passing and "the shame of pretending like I am a trans girl"
Drawing things I like in omori is kind of therapeutic
December 31, 2025 at 6:53 AM
Drawing things I like in omori is kind of therapeutic
I love how it feels like I'm going clinically insane over a mild inconvenience
Like people are usually fighting armed goblins without issue while my limbs are being torn off by a fucking house rat
Like people are usually fighting armed goblins without issue while my limbs are being torn off by a fucking house rat
December 30, 2025 at 7:01 AM
I love how it feels like I'm going clinically insane over a mild inconvenience
Like people are usually fighting armed goblins without issue while my limbs are being torn off by a fucking house rat
Like people are usually fighting armed goblins without issue while my limbs are being torn off by a fucking house rat
Glad I started to play omori, because this is exactly how I feel right now
December 30, 2025 at 2:11 AM
Glad I started to play omori, because this is exactly how I feel right now
"I wish there was a test for gender identity"
kind of points to all this just being ocd, which makes me sad...
kind of points to all this just being ocd, which makes me sad...
December 30, 2025 at 12:02 AM
"I wish there was a test for gender identity"
kind of points to all this just being ocd, which makes me sad...
kind of points to all this just being ocd, which makes me sad...
I don't think ink is for me after all...
December 29, 2025 at 4:44 AM
I don't think ink is for me after all...
I don't like how I can watch perfect blue and minutes after want to make a game with cute girls
December 28, 2025 at 2:35 AM
I don't like how I can watch perfect blue and minutes after want to make a game with cute girls