i already made this post. shoutout my shitty memory

in case anyone was curious vampires smp has taken over my life. you should come talk to me about vampires smp

And also vsmp is doing bad things to me. They need to put me down before Sunday i fear

anyway uhhh tl;dr pick a different word the one we have is bad

but like. again. say that to someone and they're like oh you're a masochist then! and I'm like. noooo this is very much not a sex thing. no one here is getting off. this is something else entirely i think

but genuinely since i was like ten years old ive been thinking about impractical harm befalling either me or whichever characters im thinking about at the time. to the point where I'm like I should probably apologize to some people for some things,

this was just supposed to be the first thought but then i kept typing so whatever you get all my thoughts on this. i don't think ive ever had a sexual fantasy i haven't had to like force and Pretend At

lots of posts about how smut is fine and whatever and you can talk about that but as soon as you're like yeah no my fantasies since my teens are entirely clean but deeply, unrealistically violent but not in a self-harm way you get Weird Looks ive noticed

you get it on this site because i don't need the crew who follows me on tumblr to know what i'm up to for once. like that one time i wrote smut except this time it's just like deeply unnecessary harm