I wanted to just be the best at everything I do. But now I'm realizing that creativity is not a limited resource and everyone can tap into it. My goal for creativity isn't capitalistic. Followers, money, power, fame, these are results, not a compass. My compass is to spark creativity in others

And maybe I'll make a video about the spiritual aspect of creativity that is seemingly shrugged off by this community cause of trauma surrounding that word. But creating from that artist child inside you is spiritual, and touching other people's hearts is too. I'm not religious but I do believe this

But one thing for sure is - I want to bring people along and let them peek into the creative process. My favorite thing to hear is how I pulled someone out of their slump and now they are pursuing something that gives them meaning because they saw that spark of light in me

Every time I make a YouTube video I say I'm officially back, then take a month or so to happen upon it again. I would love to try again, maybe this time with restraints in place. Like it has to have minimal editing. Or I need to release it the and day I film, while the creativity is still flowing

I feel like I manifested it to be a stressful thing - saying "I don't know what to make" and refusing to just hit the record button. Creating is not stressful. My perception of people's expectations were. I see a lot of playful exploration in the future, free from that

I also let go of ego. That person I see myself as and have to constantly measure up to and filter everything by. I am constantly letting it go, and it feels so good to not care if people will think I'm crazy because it doesn't fit within guidelines I set for myself. This is a new, raw chapter 🤍

I let go of resentments, I let go of jealousy and envy. This is not a game of money and fame. It's a revolution against becoming victims and letting our stark perceptions consume our reality. By creating we are drawing closer to our divinity. That's about as deep as I'll go. I am optimistic, tldr 😚

All my life, I’ve had issues expressing myself. And through words, writing, and languages, I am capable of expressing all of those bottled up feels for myself and others. Being a translator; an author, it’s my voice. It is how I speak for myself and others. How beautiful it is to express yourself

All my life, I’ve had issues expressing myself. And through words, writing, and languages, I am capable of expressing all of those bottled up feels for myself and others. Being a translator; an author, it’s my voice. It is how I speak for myself and others. How beautiful it is to express yourself

I have made some progress, but those scars that will forever linger make me wonder if me and others will ever know what guilt-free gay love, lust, even attraction is like; how self-love ties to all of it. Can’t love others if you don’t love yourself. Wonder how one does that. It’s a long process

I hope it’s not too late, so here’s my boy!

I have made some progress, but those scars that will forever linger make me wonder if me and others will ever know what guilt-free gay love, lust, even attraction is like; how self-love ties to all of it. Can’t love others if you don’t love yourself. Wonder how one does that. It’s a long process

dün dön dön - da döh all the way