ten thousand thoughts floating around in my brain

the worst feeling in the world is nausea + having to go to the bathroom.. i genuinely
want to die

happened again today

what if i become a completely different person or what if it doesn’t work at all 🙄

last november is nothing compared to this. my mind is completely blank… if i cared id say it’s unsettling but i cant even bring myself to care. i’m burning and i don’t even care. my head feels like its going to explode and i dont care. whats the point of anything really

my brain is barely reacting to anything. physically i can tell that im in pain.. mentally im pretty sure my brain shut down and gave up

it’s kinda like i’m under anesthesia on the brink between being awake and falling asleep except my mind is super clear and i can’t fall asleep

i’ve never felt like this before… i feel absolutely nothing

everything is always my fault

i wrote letters for every person who's important to me