It also scares the hell out of me, that I might tend to be more rational and lose the ability to even listen, or at a certain extent, feel my own emotions and others'.

The dilemma of wanting to build yourself first and seizing the moment because you never know if you can get the chance really do sucks.

But, I ain't lying, I do like her since I knew her from our college days. I just noticed her late since she got work.

I'm hesitating because I want to be a consistent guy for her.

Thanks, man. Really need this. Appreciate you a lot.

be more compassionate. I did love her and maybe still do, but I need to drift apart from her to save myself.

Hope that everyone is safe and sound. :)

again, but I don't want to give up on it.

I guess this is all for me. It sucks to feel the pain and accept things on how they turned out. I want to be mad, yet I know it would not bring any good at all for me.

I wish the best for her.
Despite the sense of hatred building up on me, I always try to-

chance at love. Now, I do know how it feels. We never became official but man, it did matter to me. But, I guess this is just a big slap of a lesson for me this year. For real. What a year.

That's all. I want to write a fic hell out of me but everything just hit hard. I don't even if I can write-

enough shared moments together but I feel ashamed of myself for letting myself fall too hard. I'm in progress of forgiving myself but there are times and days that will just hit you hard.

I'm not trying to neglect what I feel but I'm doing my best to move forward. I thought I'm going to have my-