That being stated, that means I got to stop ghosting people and start going to events again. I don't want to be a remnant of the old me. I want to be the product of time and effort

I was just complacent with where I was in life and what I was doing that I basically got lazy. I slowed down beginning to see faults and cracks on the surface so it's time for me to speed up again I'm going to do my best cuz I'm always trying to better myself and the people around me

Batten out of the hatches prepare for hyperdrive. I've got something in sight that I want and you all know what that means. Once I see something of my sites that I want I won't back down till I get it or achieve it

To be completely honest, what I want to achieve is a better me.

That nice feeling of What you do anybody can do and it would be easy.
I think today's going to be the last day with current job. I'm going to change my career again. Maybe try to go after something much harder. That way I can at least feel like I'm doing something important again

Sorry mewlings of a fox who knows they will always be a side character

I wonder if anyone releases I drive so fast and recklessly to feel that thing in my chest beat I snowboard for the same reason the harder it beats the more awake and alive I feel

I tell others I'll pull up and I'm good at coming back but as of late it's getting harder and the ground is coming up so fast

There's so much I want to say and I back down because I don't want the pity I want understanding I want someone I can open up to and tell them everything and not get told that's life

I just wish I was flying alone through this storm I keep looking over for a copilot to tell me we will be ok