preys on vulnerable women and takes advantage of them. I’ve had such a horrible gut feeling about him since day one and I’m convinced he’s a disgusting person and no one else seems to see that. It drives me fucking crazy

this dude just seems so selfish and doesn’t think beyond his own self. My mom is so male centered and starved for attention that she just eats it up. Not to mention the person he was with before her had cancer and he doesn’t even talk to that person’s kids anymore which just makes me feel like he

consistently calling her and talking to her for hours when we were supposed to spend time together, bought her extremely expensive things super early into the relationship (love bombing imo), and now he’s flying her out for the week before Christmas and sending her back home on Christmas Eve like

“do you think you’re the one pushing yourself away” *actively tries to make an effort to hang out with my family and be involved in their lives* *gets ignored or gets comments that clearly show they have some sort of problem with me* THIS IS WHY I ISOLATE MYSELF!! I’M EITHER TOO MUCH OR NOT ENOUGH!

and then acting like “no! we’re not doing that” I’M NOT AN IDIOT I CAN FEEL WHEN YOU’RE SECRETLY MAD AT ME!!! STOP MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I’M CRAZY!!! god I want to be alone so bad I’d almost rather be homeless than deal with this shit

it’s so demoralizing to feel like purely existing annoys people. like I don’t deserve happiness or anything without being judged and othered for it, especially by the people who supposedly “love” you

started being sober on august 31st. Still going strong!! I can’t believe I’m actually doing this

I lasted one day and had to get more but I’m running out of money and ran out again so it looks like t break #2 might just happen