How could I forget that Q1 is peak anxiety and depression

And almost everything is good except for the noise. The cars, motorcycles, banging, clanking, shouting neighbours

It’s too fucking much

I am overstimulated. My senses are on high alert. I feel like my body is in so much danger. Nothing has changed in my life except for my work schedule and it comes with a lot of pros for my personal life but god the drawbacks are annoying.

Makes sense why working at night works for me…god I need better noise cancelling headphones

In the words of Caitlyn Kiramman

“I don’t need consolation. I NEED a plan”

Okay so this is MAYBE, maybe, getting jealous that no one calls me with a term of endearment like that.

God a week is my usual, but jeez I’m cramming it all up in 3 days.

Am I just… really… crazy??????

Drive was great too. Put my playlist on without complaints.

Okay.. the solution is maintaining a scowling face and ignoring them. They thought I was angry, and my mom took the passenger seat and was quiet.

Anyway, I’ll probably lose more water bottles, hair ties, handkerchiefs, hats - small things, replaceable things - in my lifetime. Best to learn when to leave things behind.

Being sentimental at an airport geez 😅

that’s what you get from being away for a while.