i will feed myself, but first i will scavange

and this time i literally waited 16 days and now i'm spotting 🥲 what a convenient thing to happen, this totally won't end up disregulating me more lol

here's the thing though, you're trans and autistic so when you're extremely disregulated due to your environment it's really difficult to keep up with consistent t shots once a week. i have skipped shots for a month before because of this. problem is, if i skip for too long i'll get a period again.

god i wish i could afford therapy again 🥲

idk how to feel valid when i've never been told that the way i feel and how sensitive i am is valid before. i have to create that feeling for myself from nothing and it's really hard.

-the validating part is even harder because all I can think is that it's stupid that I even feel that way in the first place and my feelings don't matter and it's not worth crying over. idk how to let myself feel the feelings without resisting them and beating myself up the whole time.