This is so sweet! It's been nice to be off most social media. I get on Instagram just to watch like 30 mins of stupid videos haha. I've been ok this past month, I hope you have as well!! I've donated some money locally & kept an eye on my neighborhood unhoused folks.

I feel comforted walking through a cemetery, although I can't quite explain why. Maybe it makes it easier to process missing the living.

If there is really anything I'm trying to say here it's that this whole year I just have had a hard time and I just don't really know what to do anymore except try to keep the roof over my head, literally and metaphorically.

I find that I don't have the energy because I think I'm unlikeable, don't want to prove myself, and just hate the way I come across when I do. & the second I hear victim mindset I go further into myself. The last time I SHd was July so I've got extra therapy scheduled.

Basically I'm going to collect 60% of my income until....?? Never felt more defeated as a result of an injury I didn't cause. Trying to maintain new friendships when I'm stressed. Old friendships dying out as a result of ...???