I was trying to find a way of wording this without dumping it on you oof, But believe me when I say this, I've been feeling better than ever since I've just accepted how I work. I'm using the money of the comms to get myself a more in depth diagnosis and help because this affects me hard. XP

- high need cat that understandably require attention
- aging parents
-a brain that needs deep immersion to function

It's a brutal combo for someone that needs sustained focus... My strategies have been all about taking care of these variables before they affect me, and then work at night.

You know how your family comes chit chat with you just to show a tiktok video? If I get interrupted like this, I genuinely cannot focus. There's no use asking not to, they'll get angry... So I try my best to work on comms at night. Granted, if I'm exhausted, it's hard. But it's legit all I can do.

Sounds, voices, they get on my nerves if I need to focus, it's torture. With a paraplegic cat interrupting me constantly, needing attention, I'm in constant state of frustration if I force it. So I am only able to fully have silence and peace at night when everybody is sleeping, cats and all.

Yeah, like... I used to blame myself a lot for this. I've found out that for autistic ppl like me the core problem isn't laziness, it's how the brain regulates attention and motivation. Actually even working 10 minutes is usually enough to trigger full focus. Problem is, I don't have my own space.

Then I eventually manage to get my interest click again, it's "all system go" all over again until I crash out again. Rinse and repeat. Honestly maybe I should mention this in my next session or sth. It's not healthy.

When I'm obsessed, the project takes over my mind completely. I sometimes even ignore sleep, food, social stuff, without even trying to. It's that state where productivity skyrockets temporarily. Then eventually exhaustion hits. It tanks motivation for days.

In their website they recommend NVIDIA GeForce RTX 3060 or equivalent, which is far far better. Honestly, I don't know what the actual required minimum will be, however... Especially if they plan to run this on phones. xD

I got so impatient the next season coming out only in October I have started reading the novels because of it XD

I’ve noticed the mind can play tricks on you, sometimes what we feel isn’t exactly the whole reality and we get carried away...... Writing things down can really help untangle it all and sort things out, it's kind of magical. I hope it helps you even a little bit. 🫂

I need free time...
Thank you so much xD

Tina is telling them to get a room, I approve!! 💪 😤

It was supposed to be a new year thing but this ship has sailed long ago 😂