I don't know why I'm so sad about this.
I don't know why I expected differently.
I have to trust people less

I've been shown too many times that no matter how sincerely someone apologizes, if they've hurt you severly and repeatedly in the same way, they will always do it again

I'll be ok
but wow..

how can someone intimately know how badly you were hurt by something in the past, tell you how sorry they are that you went through that thing, and then slice back into that same wound without a second thought...

I don't understand. I just don't understand

I need to stop believing that people who show their capacity for cruelty over and over and over again can change

even if they have changed, I do not want to be a part of that ever again

it seemingly only ever leads to me being hurt again for choosing to believe in the good in people.....

I'm sad

idk how to describe the sadness and disappointment to realize that someone I had spent months rebuilding a connection with, who I genuinely thought about every day and cared for a lot despite them having hurt me severely several times in the past, apparently did not care for me at all the whole time

please come to experience it irl 👁️😈

we're looking at 3 stages and a giant fucking renegade rager.

and we'd LOVE to have you.
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I don't wanna say who this is about ever. bc even after all of this I DON'T think they're evil I just want NOTHING to do with them and I'm tired of being unable to handle shit in an adult way without it backfiring bc grown adults can't accept my boundaries. NO MEANS NO . WHEN I SAY NO RESPECT THAT.

lmao I wanted to preserve ur image but go off ig I fucking never want to be touched again by anyone who isn't my partner if this is what happens when I'm vulnerable with my body and then communicate that I'm not interested in sex at the moment. GO REDUCE SOMEONE ELSE TO THEIR PUSSY BC IT WONT BE ME!

it's so cool when I vent my feelings with ZERO IDENTIFIERS in a safe chat, I go to TWO (2) PEOPLE to talk about this violating event PRIVATELY to avoid fucking over the person who made me uncomfortable, then the person who borderline sexually harassed me comes into that space and OUTS THEMSELF. ok!!