Pawel
@rapsrickallious.bsky.social
My journal.
Undergoing Individuation
Undergoing Individuation
The US is on fire.
January 16, 2026 at 9:01 AM
The US is on fire.
I live in a completely different reality to most people on social media, and it's a privilege.
January 16, 2026 at 8:58 AM
I live in a completely different reality to most people on social media, and it's a privilege.
The dark night of the soul. I'm going through it.
January 15, 2026 at 7:26 PM
The dark night of the soul. I'm going through it.
I'm not ready for the furry fandom. I can't even take care of myself.
January 11, 2026 at 2:42 PM
I'm not ready for the furry fandom. I can't even take care of myself.
I live in October throughout the whole year.
January 11, 2026 at 12:26 PM
I live in October throughout the whole year.
The Pentagon has found Pawel's shadow.
January 11, 2026 at 11:34 AM
The Pentagon has found Pawel's shadow.
The Sentry Project. Not everyone survives.
January 11, 2026 at 11:02 AM
The Sentry Project. Not everyone survives.
My life is an experiment: an antidote to suicide
January 11, 2026 at 10:39 AM
My life is an experiment: an antidote to suicide
I'm about to lose a friendship that I always longed for. This is hard.
January 11, 2026 at 10:29 AM
I'm about to lose a friendship that I always longed for. This is hard.
I'm destined to fail.
January 10, 2026 at 8:43 PM
I'm destined to fail.
Now I have to rebuilt my identity and purpose from scratch, before I fall into nihilism.
January 10, 2026 at 5:12 PM
Now I have to rebuilt my identity and purpose from scratch, before I fall into nihilism.
I was very good at masking until I couldn't keep the lie. It broke me and my mask fell. Everyone realized inmediately I was autistic. Now I don't know who I am. My values. I'm in burnout phase.
January 10, 2026 at 3:06 PM
I was very good at masking until I couldn't keep the lie. It broke me and my mask fell. Everyone realized inmediately I was autistic. Now I don't know who I am. My values. I'm in burnout phase.
My soul is growing.
January 10, 2026 at 11:39 AM
My soul is growing.
Radical Compassion is the angel side of me. Radical acceptance is my "let go" archetype.
January 10, 2026 at 11:39 AM
Radical Compassion is the angel side of me. Radical acceptance is my "let go" archetype.
John Paul II, what have I done wrong?
January 10, 2026 at 11:37 AM
John Paul II, what have I done wrong?
My grandma sees the killer in my brother's eyes. She has worked with such people. Touched the hand of John Paul II. She knows what she's saying.
January 10, 2026 at 11:37 AM
My grandma sees the killer in my brother's eyes. She has worked with such people. Touched the hand of John Paul II. She knows what she's saying.
I won't help my brother when he goes through this. It's my parents responsibility. I'll just stand there watching a monster being tamed.
January 10, 2026 at 11:35 AM
I won't help my brother when he goes through this. It's my parents responsibility. I'll just stand there watching a monster being tamed.
I told a friend to kill themselves. I'd buy the rope and assist him on his suicide. Fuck you, Ernesto.
January 10, 2026 at 11:26 AM
I told a friend to kill themselves. I'd buy the rope and assist him on his suicide. Fuck you, Ernesto.
Can I say it? That im not afraid of anhilihationism.
January 10, 2026 at 11:25 AM
Can I say it? That im not afraid of anhilihationism.
I don't know who I am and what am I supposed to do. I feel like The Stranger from Albert Camus. Total apathy. Indifference. I'd scream to a priest and make them believe I'm possessed. I'm kind of are.
January 10, 2026 at 11:20 AM
I don't know who I am and what am I supposed to do. I feel like The Stranger from Albert Camus. Total apathy. Indifference. I'd scream to a priest and make them believe I'm possessed. I'm kind of are.