I can't even begin to describe how awful I feel not being able to be the entertainer I want to be; I mean... its my full-time job right now and its my only source of income. That all being said, I'm not sure I'll even have a paycheck this month. It sucks and there's nothing I can really do... (5)

I don't feel as though I can do the things that make me feel productive; I've had very little desire to stream and it kills me. The last thing I want is to show up to a livestream with little to no energy, and given how low my viewer count has been lately, it shows that the audience can tell (4)

While I won't get into the personal details of my summer trauma, I'll at least talk about how it's affected me over the last couple of years because I feel as though I'm in a very dark place at the moment. I'm not enjoying the things I normally do, I'm isolating myself and dealing with paranoia (3)

It's currently summer which means some of my most repressed and damaging trauma is coming back to me like it did last year. I remember when a friend of mine had helped me realize why the summer affected me in such a dramatic way, and it left me with more questions than answers (2)

Oh heck I haven't logged into this platform for ages. I'd heard that you'd shouted us out for the raid stuff but I had no idea you'd done it here too. I know I'm very late, but bigg thankies and it was an absolute pleasure to raid into your stream 🧡 please remember to do the hydrate stuff ✨

I'm so glad my community is honest with me like that or I'd sob sobbingly, especially if a new viewer drops in and they think I'm so unprofessional (I mean... I am a bit but shhh)

This is honestly amazing! It reminds me of all the artwork I used to see when I was a teen. These art pieces give me a feeling of nostalgia and I'm here for it!

I guess feeling so out of place for all my life partly led me to where I am now. It's interesting that a simple dream can open all of that up to you. It's like a mini therapy session ✨

I had an interesting dream recently where my bio family were almost acting like they were half aware of my existence, or just treating me in odd ways.

I have a very unstable relationship with pretty much all my bio family (not that it's all their doings, ofc, but I've always felt a bit alienated

It makes me bigg sadd 🥲