RajjiMcFloofens
@rajjimcfloofens.bsky.social
M/25/Sergal, Dragon, Fox, Canine
There isnt much to tell. Im just a guy I guess.
There isnt much to tell. Im just a guy I guess.
I'd say im sorry but I think this was bound to happen eventually with how my brain works. Just easier this way for me. Worrying and trying to appease people all the time has ruined me. Best to just stop trying and do what comes naturally.
Be good, dont die, death bad. Be kind to yourself. Farewell.
Be good, dont die, death bad. Be kind to yourself. Farewell.
July 26, 2025 at 7:01 PM
I'd say im sorry but I think this was bound to happen eventually with how my brain works. Just easier this way for me. Worrying and trying to appease people all the time has ruined me. Best to just stop trying and do what comes naturally.
Be good, dont die, death bad. Be kind to yourself. Farewell.
Be good, dont die, death bad. Be kind to yourself. Farewell.
I hate this Im tired i hate this all so much i hate this im fucking tired i cant handle this shit anymore im tired i hate this im still being forced to keep trying i hate this I hate it im tired im tired i hate this im tired
July 25, 2025 at 6:53 PM
I hate this Im tired i hate this all so much i hate this im fucking tired i cant handle this shit anymore im tired i hate this im still being forced to keep trying i hate this I hate it im tired im tired i hate this im tired
Ive lost what little energy ive held onto to fight it and I hate it. I hate the fucking world for what it's become. I hate all of these people for the blissful ignorance they all show. I hate the cruelty I've been given despite that all I've ever wanted to do was help and be kind.
July 25, 2025 at 6:53 PM
Ive lost what little energy ive held onto to fight it and I hate it. I hate the fucking world for what it's become. I hate all of these people for the blissful ignorance they all show. I hate the cruelty I've been given despite that all I've ever wanted to do was help and be kind.
Whats the point in trying when every moment of my day is spent fighting my mind off. Legitemately EVERY. FUCKING. MOMENT. I am analyzing and thinking deeper and deeper on everything around me and all conclusing turn to the wosrt outcomes. All of it makes fucking sense by the end of it.
July 25, 2025 at 6:53 PM
Whats the point in trying when every moment of my day is spent fighting my mind off. Legitemately EVERY. FUCKING. MOMENT. I am analyzing and thinking deeper and deeper on everything around me and all conclusing turn to the wosrt outcomes. All of it makes fucking sense by the end of it.
All things considered I should be fine I should feel safe I should feel accepted but im ugly and cruel and full of so much hate and I can never ever ever let it show. All it does is ruin someone else's day and im viewed as a fucked up monster which at this point is just flat out true.
July 25, 2025 at 6:53 PM
All things considered I should be fine I should feel safe I should feel accepted but im ugly and cruel and full of so much hate and I can never ever ever let it show. All it does is ruin someone else's day and im viewed as a fucked up monster which at this point is just flat out true.
Every single day is like going out to a fucking warzone for me. All it takes is one thing to send me spiralling downward and ruin my own fucking day. Never do I get to feel fine, safe or accepted anywhere I go.
July 25, 2025 at 6:53 PM
Every single day is like going out to a fucking warzone for me. All it takes is one thing to send me spiralling downward and ruin my own fucking day. Never do I get to feel fine, safe or accepted anywhere I go.
Oh and for those of you out there who think im piss drunk right now? Im perfectly sober. Go fuck yourself. Genuinely go fuck yourself.
July 25, 2025 at 5:10 AM
Oh and for those of you out there who think im piss drunk right now? Im perfectly sober. Go fuck yourself. Genuinely go fuck yourself.
I guarantee im going to come out on the other side of this and eeeeeeeeeeverybody is going to treat me differently. If I dare come back I cant wait to see the concerned faces just staring unknowing of what to say to my psychotic ass.
July 25, 2025 at 5:10 AM
I guarantee im going to come out on the other side of this and eeeeeeeeeeverybody is going to treat me differently. If I dare come back I cant wait to see the concerned faces just staring unknowing of what to say to my psychotic ass.
I'm not okay hahahah I've never been fucking okay guys what a revelation is this! I have a therapist and it's not fucking working hahahahahahah! Im doing all the fucking steps and all the fucking work to get better and it's not fucking working guys isn't that grand?!?!?!?
July 25, 2025 at 5:10 AM
I'm not okay hahahah I've never been fucking okay guys what a revelation is this! I have a therapist and it's not fucking working hahahahahahah! Im doing all the fucking steps and all the fucking work to get better and it's not fucking working guys isn't that grand?!?!?!?
Just tell me you cant handle people with "issues" so I can write you off as a shallow asshole. Just tell me you can only handle people who handle their emotions like and adult so I can write you off as a shallow asshole. Just tell me I fucking suck across the board so I dont invest myself into you.
July 25, 2025 at 5:10 AM
Just tell me you cant handle people with "issues" so I can write you off as a shallow asshole. Just tell me you can only handle people who handle their emotions like and adult so I can write you off as a shallow asshole. Just tell me I fucking suck across the board so I dont invest myself into you.
Just tell me my only worth to you is that im a tool or an escape or a meaningless source of pleasure for your stupid fucking fantasies so I can write you off as a shallow asshole. Just tell me you're going to be nice to me and never acknowledge me so I can write you off as a shallow asshole.
July 25, 2025 at 5:10 AM
Just tell me my only worth to you is that im a tool or an escape or a meaningless source of pleasure for your stupid fucking fantasies so I can write you off as a shallow asshole. Just tell me you're going to be nice to me and never acknowledge me so I can write you off as a shallow asshole.
I think the best solution for me would be some genuine deep down honesty in all its brutal fashion. Just tell me you dont care and I can write you off as a shallow asshole and call it a day. Just tell me im too emotional and problematic and I can write you off as a shallow asshole and call it a day.
July 25, 2025 at 5:10 AM
I think the best solution for me would be some genuine deep down honesty in all its brutal fashion. Just tell me you dont care and I can write you off as a shallow asshole and call it a day. Just tell me im too emotional and problematic and I can write you off as a shallow asshole and call it a day.
I still dont want to come back. Im tired. I dont want to look at people and say "im sorry" for freaking out like this again. Sorry doesnt mean anything from me anymore. Id say it wont happen again but it likely will. Id say ill try to be better but i'll get tired again and fuck it all up again.
July 25, 2025 at 5:10 AM
I still dont want to come back. Im tired. I dont want to look at people and say "im sorry" for freaking out like this again. Sorry doesnt mean anything from me anymore. Id say it wont happen again but it likely will. Id say ill try to be better but i'll get tired again and fuck it all up again.
So yeah. Yeah im doing this again. Yeah im tired. Im tired of feeling left out and forgotten all the time until im of use again im tired of feeling like my presence is conditional im tired of seeing all the signs that im not welcome like other people are.
I dont want to come back.
I hate this.
I dont want to come back.
I hate this.
July 24, 2025 at 3:46 PM
So yeah. Yeah im doing this again. Yeah im tired. Im tired of feeling left out and forgotten all the time until im of use again im tired of feeling like my presence is conditional im tired of seeing all the signs that im not welcome like other people are.
I dont want to come back.
I hate this.
I dont want to come back.
I hate this.
Im fucking tired of all this struggle I dont want to struggle anymore I just want to have a long lasting peace that doesnt immediately degrade into shit like it always does.
July 24, 2025 at 3:46 PM
Im fucking tired of all this struggle I dont want to struggle anymore I just want to have a long lasting peace that doesnt immediately degrade into shit like it always does.
I just want to throw this stupid fucking mask ive made as hard as I can against the ground until its fucking sand.
You can tell me "you didnt need to hide so much of yourself" but in honesty I did. I tried being genuine and I was fucking hated for it.
You can tell me "you didnt need to hide so much of yourself" but in honesty I did. I tried being genuine and I was fucking hated for it.
July 24, 2025 at 3:46 PM
I just want to throw this stupid fucking mask ive made as hard as I can against the ground until its fucking sand.
You can tell me "you didnt need to hide so much of yourself" but in honesty I did. I tried being genuine and I was fucking hated for it.
You can tell me "you didnt need to hide so much of yourself" but in honesty I did. I tried being genuine and I was fucking hated for it.
Now im out here, having tried for so insanely fucking long I dont know what to do anymore. Im getting help im getting therapy I still feel like fucking shit every day and im still fighting off the same thought cycles every fucking day.
July 24, 2025 at 3:46 PM
Now im out here, having tried for so insanely fucking long I dont know what to do anymore. Im getting help im getting therapy I still feel like fucking shit every day and im still fighting off the same thought cycles every fucking day.
All ive ever been was a fucking tool for people to use. Family didnt give a shit about me. My parents didnt give a shit about me. People I once considered friends and tried my absolute best to get to know better and be apart of their lives didnt give a shit about me.
July 24, 2025 at 3:46 PM
All ive ever been was a fucking tool for people to use. Family didnt give a shit about me. My parents didnt give a shit about me. People I once considered friends and tried my absolute best to get to know better and be apart of their lives didnt give a shit about me.
Im just an online weirdo after all a little fucking circus clown to laugh at/with who fucking cares who he actually is.
Any time I leave the internet I am hit with the brutal reality that I'm alone. I have nobody. I've had nobody for a really long time. Even when I lived with people I was alone.
Any time I leave the internet I am hit with the brutal reality that I'm alone. I have nobody. I've had nobody for a really long time. Even when I lived with people I was alone.
July 24, 2025 at 3:46 PM
Im just an online weirdo after all a little fucking circus clown to laugh at/with who fucking cares who he actually is.
Any time I leave the internet I am hit with the brutal reality that I'm alone. I have nobody. I've had nobody for a really long time. Even when I lived with people I was alone.
Any time I leave the internet I am hit with the brutal reality that I'm alone. I have nobody. I've had nobody for a really long time. Even when I lived with people I was alone.
Im always telling myself ive fucked up every time I show any emotion deeper than surface level interaction. 9 times out of 10 I have.
I hate having to supress myself to be nice and friendly to people I know couldnt give even half of a shit about me at the end of the day.
I hate having to supress myself to be nice and friendly to people I know couldnt give even half of a shit about me at the end of the day.
July 24, 2025 at 3:46 PM
Im always telling myself ive fucked up every time I show any emotion deeper than surface level interaction. 9 times out of 10 I have.
I hate having to supress myself to be nice and friendly to people I know couldnt give even half of a shit about me at the end of the day.
I hate having to supress myself to be nice and friendly to people I know couldnt give even half of a shit about me at the end of the day.