been so out of the loop with fanfic that i forgot it was kinktober. i need to lock IN. i need to get on my ZOOM.

tapped back into dipsea audios. they got a british soft dom dude who switches and moans hella. irl men need to STEP IT UP.

my new age hasn’t really hit me today until just now i think? when i’ve started to change my internet profiles to say 30 instead of 29. wild wild wild.

did not expect to cry as much as i did while watching materialists. that film just did SOMETHING to me.

matched with a bisexual tatted, mustached short king with silly goose energy.

time to distract myself with fanfic ✨

had to take a melatonin at nearly 3:30 am because the idea of sleeping after finishing this heart-wrenching fanfic feels IMPOSSIBLE

there’s a cute pop-up romance book event coming up and a string quartet is gonna perform there too and in a perfect world me and my fellow book-loving girlfriend would go together dressed in pretty, frilly dresses and we’d take cute pics and be bookworms together and be girlfriends but NO

screaming crying throwing a fit because i might have to work on record store day 💔

👎🏽: i have a crush

👍🏽: my creative muse is THRIVING

i fear i will be thirsting over a man during pride month 2026. i apologize in advance.

update: i guess i did a decent enough job considering a student thought i graduated from that college

about to give a tour of a college campus i’ve never been to because no one was available to give us a tour. barely prepared for it i fear. time to depend on my ability to thrive under pressure and chaotically improv

this bus driver just pissed me off

but i think i spotted him listening to a joe rogan podcast, so i’m not surprised

finally did the water in a cup hair porosity test and confirmed that i have low porosity hair. here are my additional findings:

1. i feel so smart. i love being right

2. ugh how do i master moisture retention

the horrors persist, so i will be tending to my struggles by reading “platonic” roommates to lovers firstprince fanfic.

i should call off work tomorrow so i can hold space for the lyrics of “defying gravity”

put it in the louvre

my chaos has arrived to this app.