thank you :]
I have no response yet but at least the people that got me this interview (a company I had an interview before) is willing to show me more job offers if this one doesnt move forward!

happy bday Axol!!

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and yeah, its insane that of all dates it was precisely that one ;-;

youre the Tea mastermind!! :0

omg thats such an unfortunate timing ;-;
also, its your birthday? :0 happy birthday!!

and with fight back I mean, try to do everything thats in our hands to keep happiness as something that even if it goes away for a long time, it will always come back, and will stay forever one day, take care, all of you, and lets do our best

I love you, all of you, and I hope this year gets to be a bit more merciful, but if it doesnt, I hope that on any way, we fight back with everything we can,

Ive been really hard on myself for not being someone I wanted but ended up making myself someone so difficult to connect with and that struggles so much to connect as I always did, and I want to change that, even if I dont know how

I have to try, even if rn my best is not as much as before, I have to try, for everyone and for myself, its ironic, lately I grew really scared of rejection but I have been rejecting myself for stuff I could never change,

I want to be the friend everyone of you remember and deserve, I want to draw again, to make the bookmarks I used to do again, to feel confident that I wont make things worse, to feel confident my presence is positive, recover my self confidence, recover myself, make peace with myself

I dont know, and it upsets me that the answer is that one rn
I want to be me again, on silly aspects, on supportive aspects, on social aspects overall, I want to try to become me once more, even if I feel I fail miserably many times lately,

when did I slowly stopped being me and started to see myself as someone that would make things worse for caring about others or for just being there? when did I started to reject myself so much, the person that to my surprise was always appreciated by many awesome people?

when did I became so afraid to reach out to those who I care about and that makes me sad to see struggle? when did I start to think I shouldnt be a burden to others with my concern?

I cant describe how it feels that something that was so natural makes me stop on my feet on the last moment nowadays, to say to myself "I would've said or done this if I was 100% me like I was before"

Im afraid to step up to say whats on my mind, Im afraid to reach out to just check on people, I think too much if I should step up to reach out and show support and concern, I know Im not on the obligation to many times, but,

be the person everyone knew and was always sure of what to say or do, I feel stupid to even ask how can I be myself again, cause lately and by lately I mean for a bit of a while now, I just think more than I used to,