im so fucking scareddddddddd and exciteddddddd and depresseddddddd

that no matter how much you present yourself to others, when it is not in the "part" of normal, it absolutely doesnt matter to them. being aware is not enough, but complete respect, patience, and understading, without having to justify anything in order to be accepted. thats all what everyone needs.

as i read more chapters, i already assumed that this character is probably the most relatable aro rep i've seen in a manga. thats why when i see people viewing their relationship as romantic, i have this weird like skin crawling feeling that im always being reminded of.

[feb. 7]
everyone knows every juan (2025)

very genuinely chaotic complex family drama with chracters that are fleshed out from their core. soo funny and interesting. insane camera work im inlove. made me laugh every scene even in the serious ones (excuse me for projecting my personal trauma)

[feb. 2]
aftersun (2022)

already said it on my last posts but this movie really broke me much longer than i thought. when it ended, it felt sad and whatever i sleep through it. but the daysssss after i watched it,,,, i keep thinking and thinking about it and it really fucksss mee upppp i hate it!!!

[jan. 22]
about a place in the kinki region (2025)

never trusting the cinephiles again. more on creepy mystery horror, but not really scary for me. maybe because i watched too many jhorror already. found footage scenes are good but then thats it. watch noroi instead for max full creepy exp

[jan. 21]
the cure (1995)

found family. friendship. disease and discrimination. made me cry. 4 out 5 crying tears

^

[jan. 19]
license to live (1998)

another koji yakusho multiverse. literally nothing ever happens in the movie idk what to say. just enjoying the vibes

[jan. 18]
sweet home (1989)

typical haunted house horror that feels like a typical horror game. it was so funny when they can't enter through the main door likee be fr. goofyah looking monsters then cutting to the gory scenes like bitch i dont wanna see all that eww btw 4 out 5 stars what a classic

[jan. 15]
no other choice (2025)

watched it at the cinema!! very fun experience with the audience. the actors, camera work, transitions, everything is so satisfyingly, creatively put together im blown away. my fave part is saying "god, i love it" every time theres a scene using mirrors/ reflections

[jan. 11]
pluribus (2025)

watched it for rhea seehorn, left as karolina worshipper BWHSHAHAW
synopsis: imagine talking to everyone on earth in a person, the world is ending, and also everyone doesnt give any fuck about everything. i love it.

[jan. 2]
like father, like son (2013)

first movie i watched after new years day that made me cry like a newborn infant 🙄 the ending scene when he goes thru the camera roll fucks me upppp!!!! koreeda really masters the cinema of family dynamics

also fuck it im adding tv shows/series and some anime as well

lowkey 4got about this, will upd8 it l8r

also the kind of film that idk if i can watch with someone. it's too personal for me. i dont want to talk about it with anyone

it's the kind of film that made me cry and thought "wow ok" then sleep afterwards. but hours later when i woke up, it started hitting me more and i kept thinking about it. im scared for the next few days or months