again, it'd probably have significant health costs. If I could somehow secure a solid financial situation, I might try it. It'd probably be fun if making money wasn't the objective.

Like, it gets harder all the time, I don't know where to find appropriate music, software or art really and unless I get insanely lucky, I could be throwing all of my work into a void and getting nothing back for my effort. I did the starving artist thing in college. I'm pretty sure if I tried it -

I wish I was lucky enough to attend cons in my younger years. I was too busy just trying to survive. I think that version of me would have had a much better life.

with back then just got worse. But there were also good days I had there that I don't really have anymore. But I have grown quite a bit since then, so it's not all bad news. I caste off an anchor tonight and I'm more than happy to see it go. Rot in agony, you cesspool of a platform.

I feel this in my bones.

people entirely, as I get older and find less people into the things I enjoy?

I don't know, but for now at least, I can still enjoy these things. I should try to do them while I can. Get good memories while I can. Meet new people while I can. I won't know what might come my way unless I try.

game. I could conceivably have fun with the hobby again. But I don't...know if I could take something like that happening again to me. I''ve already had so many bad memories of running with various online groups, that as I get older, will I just...stop reaching out? Just stop wanting to be around -

I'd just go, what's the point, you know? I'm probably not going to get into another game, so what's the point in making character ideas?

But...I've recovered a bit. I can look at these things and feel a little bit of a spark, but not the joy I once had. I might have potentially joined another -

Anytime I think about the campaign's funnier or better moments, I instantly swing back to "oh yeah? And look at how those people treated you when the game ended? How quickly they tossed you aside." For awhile there, I couldn't even stand to look at any pathfinder/Starfinder/D&D material because -

I'm sure there's a few places you can read horror stories, but I know a big one is on Reddit.

Wait, this is real? What have they done to my boy!?

- Starfinder games and if this is the only option, I may have to give up on it like I did for Humblewood.

I'm open to ideas if you have them! And thank you in advance for the help.

There doesn't seem to be any societies for Starfinder in my state, if I'm reading this right. And the online offerings in my time zones are sparse and seemingly preferring people from their local area.