Boy if you don’t-

This should all definitely be on my anonymous account here and not one with my face on it (hi, if you know me, no you don’t) but it’s nearly 1am and I’m sitting here annoyed at myself for feeling this way so I figured posting through it might help

And like this is why I have an NSFW Reddit. So I can get my ass out there and get some attention when I need it. But it’s not enough, ya know? I want tangible attention, not from randos on Reddit. I want attention that keeps coming back.

Genuinely it’s a trauma thing, but like what can ya do yknow

Like I just have pictures and videos sitting on my phone of me that, as soon as the clock strikes 12am, I’m so tempted to just send to people. I don’t, because consent is important and so is self respect and making decisions I won’t regret in the morning, but it’s tempting lol