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@putridum.bsky.social
21, any pronouns | tw: ed
h:174 cw:48 • recovery era
dnf: fatphobes, anti-rec, bigots
h:174 cw:48 • recovery era
dnf: fatphobes, anti-rec, bigots
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@putridum.bsky.social
· Nov 17
hii :3 would anyone like to be moots? #edsky #caterpillarsky
• 20, any pronouns
• h 174, cw 44 gw ??
• pl/eng
• goth/alt
• ♡ movies, music, reading, drawing, sometimes writing. currently trying to learn how to make my own clothes :)
i try my best to interact! <3
• 20, any pronouns
• h 174, cw 44 gw ??
• pl/eng
• goth/alt
• ♡ movies, music, reading, drawing, sometimes writing. currently trying to learn how to make my own clothes :)
i try my best to interact! <3
WHAT IF i went on a diet to lose like 2 kg and nothing more
November 28, 2025 at 10:22 PM
WHAT IF i went on a diet to lose like 2 kg and nothing more
i should probably stop drinking, i always end up considering relapsing 💀
November 28, 2025 at 10:18 PM
i should probably stop drinking, i always end up considering relapsing 💀
AAH but what if. what if i'm considered fat by ed standards, and i have reverse body dysmorphia 🥲
sometimes i look at my old b0dychecks, and i find my old body to be too thin, so there's at least that ig
November 28, 2025 at 10:13 PM
AAH but what if. what if i'm considered fat by ed standards, and i have reverse body dysmorphia 🥲
sometimes i look at my old b0dychecks, and i find my old body to be too thin, so there's at least that ig
November 28, 2025 at 9:49 PM
sometimes i look at my old b0dychecks, and i find my old body to be too thin, so there's at least that ig
recently i've found myself wondering if people still see my body as too thin. i mean, i did gain a bunch since i was forced into recovery (like 8kg?), and i got my period back, but my chest bones are still clearly visible? idk how to feel about it all
November 28, 2025 at 9:48 PM
recently i've found myself wondering if people still see my body as too thin. i mean, i did gain a bunch since i was forced into recovery (like 8kg?), and i got my period back, but my chest bones are still clearly visible? idk how to feel about it all
hello!! quick update – recovery is going amazing :3 i am maintaining 45kg while eating 1600+ kcal everyday. turns out that i love cooking (it's my new favourite hobby), and i actually enjoy my life for the first time in a long time :3 it was hard at first but it gets better with time :)
July 2, 2025 at 6:16 PM
hello!! quick update – recovery is going amazing :3 i am maintaining 45kg while eating 1600+ kcal everyday. turns out that i love cooking (it's my new favourite hobby), and i actually enjoy my life for the first time in a long time :3 it was hard at first but it gets better with time :)
slightly positive update: i dyed my hair black, and i'm hot once again:3
March 8, 2025 at 9:17 PM
slightly positive update: i dyed my hair black, and i'm hot once again:3
i'm so terribly afraid of gaining weight, but at the same time i'm so angry at my brain for failing me. i used to be so smart, so creative, and now i'm just an empty, pretty shell of a person. it's so sad
March 8, 2025 at 9:02 PM
i'm so terribly afraid of gaining weight, but at the same time i'm so angry at my brain for failing me. i used to be so smart, so creative, and now i'm just an empty, pretty shell of a person. it's so sad
forced recovery is NOT going well, i'm still purging and currently drunk
March 8, 2025 at 8:04 PM
forced recovery is NOT going well, i'm still purging and currently drunk
i ate pizza and im genuinely tweaking out i want to purge it out so badly AAAHAG
March 2, 2025 at 8:17 PM
i ate pizza and im genuinely tweaking out i want to purge it out so badly AAAHAG
i ate a normal lunch without restricting and counting calories 💪🏻 AND i had two big pieces of cake that i made AND i'm not purging it out :3 my plan is to gain around 5 kg? we'll see
March 1, 2025 at 1:36 PM
i ate a normal lunch without restricting and counting calories 💪🏻 AND i had two big pieces of cake that i made AND i'm not purging it out :3 my plan is to gain around 5 kg? we'll see
41.5 on the scale :) maybe,,, maybe i can hit 39 before i go on recovery😭
March 1, 2025 at 12:48 AM
41.5 on the scale :) maybe,,, maybe i can hit 39 before i go on recovery😭
at least i hit bmi 13 before i was forced to recover 💔 you'll be missed (i'll be back at this weight in the summer idc)
February 28, 2025 at 1:51 PM
at least i hit bmi 13 before i was forced to recover 💔 you'll be missed (i'll be back at this weight in the summer idc)
skinny era is over <//3
February 28, 2025 at 1:27 PM
skinny era is over <//3
IM AT RISK OF HOSPITALIZING LMAO my bmi is too low, and i need a paper from psychiatrist before i can continue therapy kms
i got the apprenticeship :3 and now i'm walking to see the therapist 🫡 pray for my stupid ass
February 28, 2025 at 1:19 PM
IM AT RISK OF HOSPITALIZING LMAO my bmi is too low, and i need a paper from psychiatrist before i can continue therapy kms
i'm in the waiting room with one lady, and she keeps staring at me 💀
February 28, 2025 at 11:59 AM
i'm in the waiting room with one lady, and she keeps staring at me 💀
i got the apprenticeship :3 and now i'm walking to see the therapist 🫡 pray for my stupid ass
February 28, 2025 at 11:37 AM
i got the apprenticeship :3 and now i'm walking to see the therapist 🫡 pray for my stupid ass
i'm starting to get stressed :( i have an appointment regarding my internship (i really hope that my appearance will not be a problem) in two hours, and then the therapy at 1 pm 😞
February 28, 2025 at 8:17 AM
i'm starting to get stressed :( i have an appointment regarding my internship (i really hope that my appearance will not be a problem) in two hours, and then the therapy at 1 pm 😞
i'm genuinely considering having the biggest b/p known to mankind before i see the therapist tomorrow
February 28, 2025 at 1:14 AM
i'm genuinely considering having the biggest b/p known to mankind before i see the therapist tomorrow
missing my pink hair like crazy rn GOD it looked so good i need it back
February 27, 2025 at 8:39 PM
missing my pink hair like crazy rn GOD it looked so good i need it back
cigarette,,, cigarette, save me from the binge urges, please 🙏🏻🙏🏻
February 27, 2025 at 7:18 PM
cigarette,,, cigarette, save me from the binge urges, please 🙏🏻🙏🏻
"my camera loves you" bitch i look constipated 😭
February 27, 2025 at 3:15 PM
"my camera loves you" bitch i look constipated 😭
the photographer who asked me to take some pics at the gothic festival half a year ago just messaged me and 💀 it's so weird to look at pictures where i have eyebrows and no bangs
February 27, 2025 at 3:13 PM
the photographer who asked me to take some pics at the gothic festival half a year ago just messaged me and 💀 it's so weird to look at pictures where i have eyebrows and no bangs
i'm meeting a therapist specialized in eating disorders tomorrow :( i'm a little scared, but i accepted my fate already lol
February 27, 2025 at 2:53 PM
i'm meeting a therapist specialized in eating disorders tomorrow :( i'm a little scared, but i accepted my fate already lol
at least i can almost wrap my hand around my upper arm 🫡 i want it i need it PLEASE
February 27, 2025 at 1:09 AM
at least i can almost wrap my hand around my upper arm 🫡 i want it i need it PLEASE