Cat coded content :3

You gotta be brave about it

Anyway if your parents hit you as a kid, getting spanked as a consenting adult in a kink setting by someone who knows what they’re doing might be a very good thing for you.

Thank you for coming to my Theodore Lecture

I was a good child, I craved the approval and affection of all my grade school teachers and any adults present in my life, I just never seemed to do anything right when it came to my parents though

I can’t possibly fathom beating a child’s bottom until it’s bruised, let alone doing that in anger. But my dad usually was very angry when he spanked me.

I remember being intensely afraid and already punishing myself for being such a bad child before the spanking even came around

Everyone wants to think they weren’t abused or that their childhood probably isn’t as bad as they remember. But sometimes, your brain covers the really bad shit up until a physical sensation triggers your memories and the emotions associated with them

The only thing I remember thinking about was “why doesn’t my father love me?”

Both of my parents spanked with the belt, but my father hit harder.

During the spanking session, I reached a point of physical pain that I think is subconsciously tied to the way my dad would hit me.

To be clear, I was not in serious physical pain and I wasn’t getting marked from this session. Up until this point, I had been actively asking my Dom to keep going harder and once he sensed that something had changed, he immediately stopped and held me while I cried

If you don’t already know, I’m into impact play, and this weekend I had limits expertly tested by some of the best doms I’ve ever had.

During an intense spanking session, I experienced a very strange internal emotional shift where I went from the height of pleasure to deep heartbreak and anguish

I expected to go to a typical horny gay man event and have to grin and bear it through typical trans-exclusionary bullshit, instead I was celebrated and affirmed

It was on a queer campground out in the Middle of Nowhere Texas, so clothing is optional and we were all 3 there at the invitation of our leather brothers from Austin, so the event was of course kink focused

I’ve been very down the last year and this was the exactly the kind of pup coded chaos I needed to distract myself

Unclear instructions, the shampoo bottle got stuck in my pussy

You know I can’t control myself when you talk sweet to me like that

What’s your gender expression? Mine’s ✨Girly Pose✨

You need to fly to Texas so I can ride it 😏

I’d always have a snack in my bag to keep boyfriend happy