THANK YOU YES THIS IS IMPORTANT TO ME! DENG!

it literally never ends with those two

i’m so sorry for your loss. 😔 i’m also so glad my rambling thoughts helped you a little. hug hug hug 🫂

double denim my favorite !!

amazing

(a sweet pup i know had to be put down yesterday too. so it’s all just really fresh & salient right now.)

anyway, this all fits together neatly in my brain and is reassuring to me — reframing death not as decay, but as a vital LIFE process, a mystery, and something to usher our precious ones into with love.

then i saw how RW can be read as a continuation of Awake:

But it's my fate
Still, I want to struggle and fight

Maybe I, I can never fly […]
Maybe I, I can't touch the sky
Still, I want to stretch my hand out
I want to run, just a bit more

“The bird fights its way out of the egg. The egg is the world. Who would be born must first destroy a world. The bird flies to God. That god’s name is Abraxas.”

that struck me because this analogy of an egg is something i read in hospice literature & it resonated with me a lot as my dad was dying.

& that’s what running wild is about, too.

i was thinking abt the theme of “running” echoing through all of bts’s work, & what that says about them, & how they employ it. so i was watching old hyyh stuff & came across namjoon reading from herman hesse in the wings short film for jin’s “awake.”

i think about this one Mr. Roger’s quote all the time where he spoke about honoring those who have “loved us into being.” and as i’ve thought about death over the past several years (a LOT), i’ve come to view that process as one that is really about LIVING, right up until the moment you aren’t.