i realized that while i dont enjoy getting hurt, i like the comfort that i get after i get hurt, so ill purposefully get hurt or stay in situations that i know will hurt me, just so that i can be comforted about it
i also know why im like that but thats trauma stuff that im not gonna get into lol

unfortunately i probably wont get to cuddle him as much as i wanna since im too shy but oh well im happy anyways ( ≧ᗜ≦)