I’m tired of trying and fighting for engagement only to get nothing. I’m tired of feeling like a goddamned failure over and over again. I’m tired of rejection. I’m tired of it all.
I just feel fucking invisible and nothing is helping.

I suppose it’s easier for others to manage if they aren’t going through a depressive episode :)

I’m gonna log off before I go on a spiral but idk today just sucks.

I'm so sorry. If there is anything that I can do to help, please let me know.
Sending you love during this time.

Ranting on social media is probably contributing to that but it’s either this or starting a fight and I rather not do the latter.

I’m gonna go cuddle with my cat until the sinking feeling in my chest is gone.

Everyone says write for yourself. But, when you look at peoples’ carrds and zine credits and kudos, you can’t help but realize how small you really are.

Anyways I’m done throwing a tantrum. My therapist says I need to focus on what I can control and right now,