iris ☆
@probablyasleep.bsky.social
your local sleepyhead
20 • edsky • mia • won't fb if -18
20 • edsky • mia • won't fb if -18
32hrs into my week-long fast :3
May 25, 2024 at 12:01 PM
32hrs into my week-long fast :3
been spending the past three days having anxiety attacks because of all the stress i'm going through
May 24, 2024 at 12:46 PM
been spending the past three days having anxiety attacks because of all the stress i'm going through
good news: i'm not b/ping multiple times a day anymore.
bad news: i'm still b/ping around once a day.
better than nothing, but it's far from the recovery i wanted.
bad news: i'm still b/ping around once a day.
better than nothing, but it's far from the recovery i wanted.
May 19, 2024 at 1:29 AM
good news: i'm not b/ping multiple times a day anymore.
bad news: i'm still b/ping around once a day.
better than nothing, but it's far from the recovery i wanted.
bad news: i'm still b/ping around once a day.
better than nothing, but it's far from the recovery i wanted.
im still alive lol iforgot this app existed 😭 im trying to recover from mia & go back to ana but it seems i can't not binge/pvrge without being a drunkorexic so
May 16, 2024 at 1:44 PM
im still alive lol iforgot this app existed 😭 im trying to recover from mia & go back to ana but it seems i can't not binge/pvrge without being a drunkorexic so
working on the "wish i had ana" part. i've had an ED for god knows how long, and i need it to not go insane, but i won't let it be mia anymore.
i feel very dizzy. every purge hurts (physically) more than the last.
i don't know how much i'll have left if i keep going like this.
not for the 1st time, i wish i had ana.
i don't know how much i'll have left if i keep going like this.
not for the 1st time, i wish i had ana.
May 9, 2024 at 6:39 PM
working on the "wish i had ana" part. i've had an ED for god knows how long, and i need it to not go insane, but i won't let it be mia anymore.
day two mia recovery. overeating today bc of stress, but i've set strict limits: overeating but NO BINGING (bf is helping make sure of it), and certainly no puking.
May 9, 2024 at 6:37 PM
day two mia recovery. overeating today bc of stress, but i've set strict limits: overeating but NO BINGING (bf is helping make sure of it), and certainly no puking.
i wanted to liquid fast today, but the sudden change between b/ping and fasting makes me feel sick (literally), so i'll have a salad with some vegan "meat" as an omad instead.
May 8, 2024 at 1:52 PM
i wanted to liquid fast today, but the sudden change between b/ping and fasting makes me feel sick (literally), so i'll have a salad with some vegan "meat" as an omad instead.
i feel very dizzy. every purge hurts (physically) more than the last.
i don't know how much i'll have left if i keep going like this.
not for the 1st time, i wish i had ana.
i don't know how much i'll have left if i keep going like this.
not for the 1st time, i wish i had ana.
May 6, 2024 at 6:52 PM
i feel very dizzy. every purge hurts (physically) more than the last.
i don't know how much i'll have left if i keep going like this.
not for the 1st time, i wish i had ana.
i don't know how much i'll have left if i keep going like this.
not for the 1st time, i wish i had ana.
reminder that i won't fb if you're under 18 and/or don't have your age on your page!!!
May 6, 2024 at 6:49 PM
reminder that i won't fb if you're under 18 and/or don't have your age on your page!!!
i did not fast. i binge/purged. twice.
i got drunk, too. don't say it much on here, but i'm an alcohoIic. b/p sessions trigger my drinking, so to be honest, i'm almost always drunk atp.
i got drunk, too. don't say it much on here, but i'm an alcohoIic. b/p sessions trigger my drinking, so to be honest, i'm almost always drunk atp.
May 6, 2024 at 6:48 PM
i did not fast. i binge/purged. twice.
i got drunk, too. don't say it much on here, but i'm an alcohoIic. b/p sessions trigger my drinking, so to be honest, i'm almost always drunk atp.
i got drunk, too. don't say it much on here, but i'm an alcohoIic. b/p sessions trigger my drinking, so to be honest, i'm almost always drunk atp.
3 b/ps today, from 10:30am to 9pm almost non-stop. i think i scratched my throat too, and that the bruise is worsening.
asking my bf to help keep me accountable for the fast bc at this point he's desperate for me to keep any nutrients down, and so am i, so he'll help.
asking my bf to help keep me accountable for the fast bc at this point he's desperate for me to keep any nutrients down, and so am i, so he'll help.
haven't kept anything down today- as per usual. i don't think it's helping my sickness but oh well.
i started a fast two hours ago, it'll probably be liquid so that i can have warm soup and heal + give my digestive system a break. also, hopefully, make it easier to go back to restriction.
i started a fast two hours ago, it'll probably be liquid so that i can have warm soup and heal + give my digestive system a break. also, hopefully, make it easier to go back to restriction.
May 5, 2024 at 10:18 PM
3 b/ps today, from 10:30am to 9pm almost non-stop. i think i scratched my throat too, and that the bruise is worsening.
asking my bf to help keep me accountable for the fast bc at this point he's desperate for me to keep any nutrients down, and so am i, so he'll help.
asking my bf to help keep me accountable for the fast bc at this point he's desperate for me to keep any nutrients down, and so am i, so he'll help.
haven't kept anything down today- as per usual. i don't think it's helping my sickness but oh well.
i started a fast two hours ago, it'll probably be liquid so that i can have warm soup and heal + give my digestive system a break. also, hopefully, make it easier to go back to restriction.
i started a fast two hours ago, it'll probably be liquid so that i can have warm soup and heal + give my digestive system a break. also, hopefully, make it easier to go back to restriction.
May 5, 2024 at 10:16 PM
haven't kept anything down today- as per usual. i don't think it's helping my sickness but oh well.
i started a fast two hours ago, it'll probably be liquid so that i can have warm soup and heal + give my digestive system a break. also, hopefully, make it easier to go back to restriction.
i started a fast two hours ago, it'll probably be liquid so that i can have warm soup and heal + give my digestive system a break. also, hopefully, make it easier to go back to restriction.
i lied i b/ped
gonna be liquid fasting today bc im p sure im starting to get sick so i'll just drink soup throughout the day & have a few sf energy drinks simply because i love energy drinks
May 4, 2024 at 7:51 PM
i lied i b/ped
gonna be liquid fasting today bc im p sure im starting to get sick so i'll just drink soup throughout the day & have a few sf energy drinks simply because i love energy drinks
May 4, 2024 at 9:33 AM
gonna be liquid fasting today bc im p sure im starting to get sick so i'll just drink soup throughout the day & have a few sf energy drinks simply because i love energy drinks
forbade myself from purging yesterday no matter how much i ate, and although i did end up needing to purge at some point because i felt too full, i only did it once and as little as possible and now anyways im shitting my guts out which was the plan all along hell yeah
May 4, 2024 at 9:28 AM
forbade myself from purging yesterday no matter how much i ate, and although i did end up needing to purge at some point because i felt too full, i only did it once and as little as possible and now anyways im shitting my guts out which was the plan all along hell yeah
after my 3rd purge of the day (during which i hopefully didn’t throw up my meds), i might have to take that back. perhaps coc4ine was easier to quit than b/p.
quitting binge/pvrging can't be that hard. i literally fucking quit coc4ine.
May 1, 2024 at 10:19 PM
after my 3rd purge of the day (during which i hopefully didn’t throw up my meds), i might have to take that back. perhaps coc4ine was easier to quit than b/p.
quitting binge/pvrging can't be that hard. i literally fucking quit coc4ine.
May 1, 2024 at 10:31 AM
quitting binge/pvrging can't be that hard. i literally fucking quit coc4ine.
saying this bc its not even 12 yet and i already b/ped so may isn't starting off well for me LMAO
im going to try to lessen my b/ps at first, try to only do it only once a day (with maybe an extra purge if it's a bad day, but only after a meal, not after a 2nd binge) then every other day and then only when "necessary". i really want to go back to restricting!
May 1, 2024 at 9:59 AM
saying this bc its not even 12 yet and i already b/ped so may isn't starting off well for me LMAO
im going to try to lessen my b/ps at first, try to only do it only once a day (with maybe an extra purge if it's a bad day, but only after a meal, not after a 2nd binge) then every other day and then only when "necessary". i really want to go back to restricting!
May 1, 2024 at 9:58 AM
im going to try to lessen my b/ps at first, try to only do it only once a day (with maybe an extra purge if it's a bad day, but only after a meal, not after a 2nd binge) then every other day and then only when "necessary". i really want to go back to restricting!
felt like shit, boss told me to go home, i went home, and proceeded to spend $75 on binge pvrging
how about you? better day than me?
how about you? better day than me?
April 30, 2024 at 1:45 PM
felt like shit, boss told me to go home, i went home, and proceeded to spend $75 on binge pvrging
how about you? better day than me?
how about you? better day than me?
b/p: hour six
(i spent over 60 dollars on b/p today)
(i spent over 60 dollars on b/p today)
April 29, 2024 at 3:47 PM
b/p: hour six
(i spent over 60 dollars on b/p today)
(i spent over 60 dollars on b/p today)
alright it's 2pm and im a beer & a bottle of wine in + 1 binge, so it's time to purge & maybe cry aheey!
April 29, 2024 at 12:07 PM
alright it's 2pm and im a beer & a bottle of wine in + 1 binge, so it's time to purge & maybe cry aheey!
dreamt that i was getting smashed so beer for breakfast it is
April 29, 2024 at 8:10 AM
dreamt that i was getting smashed so beer for breakfast it is
i know there's this whole thing of "nothing is stopping you from going to the gym" but uh, i kind of just found out that mine burned down so?
April 26, 2024 at 2:00 PM
i know there's this whole thing of "nothing is stopping you from going to the gym" but uh, i kind of just found out that mine burned down so?