I knew people would be selling em off like crazy but looks like the amount of people holding out for a valve version of a quest was WAY higher than I thought. This is a good thing tho imo. PCVR has an even lower barrier for entry now and quests will continue to get cheaper...

It's like I only allow myself to believe negative things about myself anymore. I don't know why I can't let myself like my own art. I dunno why it has to bring me down so much but clearly something needs to change

It's also really not fair that I'm comparing myself to highly specialized 3d artists who have had uhhh I dunno family support and college and work experience JUST in 3d? Or the exact same but 2d only? And why am I so butthurt about my 3d all the time and think it's not real art when I make it?

If I liked other things or diff fetishes I'm sure I would get more eyes on me. And yes my fetishes put even my friends off. But like what am I supposed to do to change it? Like other things? Become something else? I'm also doing a terrible job posting and sharing my art around cause I'm too nervous

I just can't be caring about this shit anymore. Every time I look at other peoples art I just say I'm shit and I'm not good enough. It's not even productive, I am just beating myself up over and over all the time and not letting myself enjoy anything I make because I'm too self conscious

The only thing that sucks about soccer kits is the gigantic ads on the chest (for so many leagues) If they were more like a shoulder patch I might actually wear soccer jerseys

I honestly want to stop especially cause it feels immature tbh. I can't say I'm leaening anything or improving by simply comparing myself to other artists all the time. I just get so emotional about my own art cause I have poured so much of my life into it, bweh.

I appreciate it

Late at night especially i find myself comparing myself to other artists very hard, even though you'd think I would cut myself some slack for being multidisciplinary, I am twice as hard on myself really. I will compare myself to painter style 2d artists with art degrees for example

I was NOT supposed to be an artist, and it's super fucking obvious I will never smooth over the shittiness of my art. It's simply beyond my physical ability/intelligence etc

It's crazy I've been doing art for this long and I'm this shitty at it

And just like that I saw an in-channel advertisement for a bot that makes AI furry art.... Telegram is so cooked