I choked on my water

LMAO real

Every piss on the moon line I feel bad for paperboxhouse, I know that man is TIRED of hearing that.

My composure while I get denied again and again and again..ok I'll stop

Some days hearing "if you love it then keep doing it" I've been hearing that for 12 years and no change, i have seen people in my life offline and online who legit are just the worst of people be in positions they honestly dont belong in and I have to try and keep

And yet...The one thing I wish would change..doesnt and I keep wondering if I should just dissappear because who would honestly care, everyone is going through thier own hurt, everyone is tired and angry so nothing makes me different...too much to vent and I feel like a bitch when I do.

And if that sounds too depressing, then sorry not sorry but it gets irritating when I realize that. Im grateful for being alive after a health scare, im grateful that irl things are hopefully looking up even with the moments of wondering whether or not im gonna lose my home

I have had people i met who has givin me advice that resorted to "if your not this i can't or won't support you" and that is just a kick in the nuts. I could churn out videos and short videos for days but no one cares. I have no audience, just me, myself and I

But im still too damn stubborn to quit because there's a part of me that doesnt want to give up on my dreams even though time after time im being reminded that no one cares and I have yet to have someone truly sit down and either give me advice or say quit while your ahead

Oof