Feeling better from Covid after like 10 days, but reeling from a double shift. Always worry with Covid.

...Uh oh. Been sick since the new year, and lost 15 pounds in 4 days. I'm Type 2 diabetic, so this is beating my ass down.

Surviving? Barely feel alive. I'm here to 2026, but I am scared I would say the wrong thing or be rebuked saying what I was afraid to with those that mean the world. Now... without my old man, whom why I moved out from NY with. Is survival enough? Feel lost without friends.

Socializing is hard.

Peak is back. They still got it.
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Signal boosting for my brothers. I'm barely making it as things go, so Luis my brother wanted to use this to help pay for Dad's funeral. A good photo. Buh. I'm the one in the far right. Tried to post this on X, and spam engagements instantly. Not too many here, but more real. gofund.me/85aee1e44

I've seen this wording with AI models with blacklisted visuals or words. Non-con includes transformation stuff. How would they even begin to enforce this? Unless they had some help. Maybe even artificially.

If there is one big thing that I have noticed for awhile, is the lack of empathy from many folks since the C-virus lockdown. Lots of "what have you done for me lately" and not understanding why folks did what they did. It sucks. Don't assume the worst of people in this trying time. Listen. Please.

Thanks a bunch, @mewscaper.bsky.social for sending me a Holiday card. It's sweet of you to do so, and to be reminded of being a good person worthy as such. Been feeling down on myself for awhile, but some folks get me at least. From the bottom of my heart? Thanks for being around.

There's so much that I'd love to talk about the things last year I couldn't. So much I didn't know, and those that I learned from were so very wrong. The nightmares wondering if closest friends would listen, hurts to limit socializing and writing. Yet, here I am to try & fix what is broken.