new year’s resolution: actually give his coworkers names

semi-related kind of not really but this reminds me of a tangent I went on with a friend a while back. idk how easy the screenshot is gonna be to read so I'm posting it separately too

tl;dr

also the question didn’t ask this but I wanna talk about it anyway. while khasar’s magic just feels like pure energy to him, to others it feels cold to the point of having a slight numbing effect. nice if you have a bad burn, less nice if you’re frostbitten

finally I was able to make use of this note to myself

it’s still in my mind that he plays a song on altani’s birthday every year.

losing it or seeing it destroyed would devastate him 👍 even more so if he couldn’t salvage any piece of it (even having a shard of the wood would be better than nothing). regardless, he’d feel pretty empty for a while.

could say more on this but I feel the brain fog fighting me so. goodbye. if some of this sounds suspiciously similar to vulcan philosophy do NOT worry about it

—is also kind of horrified by what people will do to each other while in the throes of strong emotion.

instead of coming to that realization tho he just goes “people beating the shit out of each other makes me uncomfortable. hm well obviously because they’re wild and out of control”

he himself isn’t even aware of this, but I do think violence scares him. yeah because if someone who’s really skilled comes for him he’s basically dead, but more than that, that extremely-deeply-buried part of him that wants to be a healer in order to help others—

[coming back hours later] I am NOT coherent rn but I need to note this down before I forget. a lot of this stems from khasar doing his usual thing and trying to apply logic to a feeling he doesn’t want to examine more deeply

afterwards, he’d insist he was never really scared. it’s a reflex to flinch when someone jumps out and screams at you. that’s a basic fact. NO he did NOT “get into it.”

(later, after he’s home, he startles at the sound of an owl hooting and swears to never go to one of those damned places again)

once inside, he’d quiet down, but maintain the usual “I’m-so-not-impressed-by-this” look.

anyway he’d proceed to get jumpscared about thirty times

obligatory “he’d only be there if someone dragged him.” but anyway the whole time he’s waiting to get inside, khasar is critiquing the set, the props, the costumes. how could anyone find this frightening? really, is that supposed to be an ahriman? it’s inaccurate.