I just want someone to like me... No, that's not right... I just want to be liked by you... Shimamura, do you hate me? Do you hate me just like my mom does? Are you going to stop calling out to me? Are you going to pretend I'm a stranger? What should I even say?

i dont know if anyone will ever get to read or hear this, but i really really need to be better. i love this dummy way too much to see him suffer and my only wish is for him to feel better, to feel safer, to feel less restricted, to be able to depend on me again, i dont want anything else

i hate being born with a weak heart. struggling each time i have a slightly high heart rate, paired with the fact that its been way too high consistently the past few days is giving me new levels of anxiety i have never experienced before, but i cannot stop pushing, i need to be better