i would've given up everything for them and it still wouldn't have been enough

considering my mental state right now i'm most likely gonna have bad dreams tonight. but this time, instead of being afraid of falling asleep like i usually am, i'm just gonna try not to gaf and sleep when i have to

there's this neuroscientist that i'm mutuals with on my main and he's one of the very first few accounts that i followed and he followed me back and i always wonder why??? he only posts scientific articles and studies and he's a professor too and i always wonder what he thinks about my shitposts

i do not like myself lol

i'm so intolerant of bullshit that it's actually not a good thing. i wish i were more diplomatic and level-headed sometimes

not doing good at all i feel the deep depression coming back and this time i kinda don't even wanna get better bc what's the point like im tired of the cycle

i don't wanna do this i really don't wanna do this ughhh fuck my life

feeling disillusioned by people

i really don't feel pretty at all but instead of trying to make myself feel better about my appearance i'm just trying to decenter my looks altogether

wtf !!!!!!!!

i feel SO !!!!!!!!

i feel weird posting on my main acc after today 😕

i say that i am never ever jealous and that's true 99.999% of the time but rn i think i'm. kinda jealous. and i hate it

maybe romanticising people from the past to make up for the loneliness i feel now isn't gonna help me

hoping that one day i just get to exist while being myself to the fullest. with no fear.

wondering how much i wanna promo this account. i think i should try to keep it as small as possible

idk how many people from my original acc i'm gonna add here tbh. i'm already talking about something that i have a hard time discussing bc i don't wanna make other people uncomfortable

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