it’s seriously annoying how badly people (specifically, cis het people) cling to social and gender norms. sure they serve a purpose for a functional society to further itself but most if not all the time it devolves into nonconforming people needlessly suffering just for being different
October 21, 2025 at 7:55 AM
it’s seriously annoying how badly people (specifically, cis het people) cling to social and gender norms. sure they serve a purpose for a functional society to further itself but most if not all the time it devolves into nonconforming people needlessly suffering just for being different
i remember thinking that nihilism was perhaps too much but now i think it’s a perfectly valid way to think given how the world operates. not like i’m against change but the more knowledge i acquire the more i feel like humanity’s course is so unnecessarily cruel to the common person.
October 21, 2025 at 2:37 AM
i remember thinking that nihilism was perhaps too much but now i think it’s a perfectly valid way to think given how the world operates. not like i’m against change but the more knowledge i acquire the more i feel like humanity’s course is so unnecessarily cruel to the common person.
i miss the mutuals i interacted with fairly frequently on shitter but they’re either still on there more often or they’re more offline nowadays. oh well. nothing matters anyway
October 21, 2025 at 2:33 AM
i miss the mutuals i interacted with fairly frequently on shitter but they’re either still on there more often or they’re more offline nowadays. oh well. nothing matters anyway
it’s crazy how much of a hopeless failure i am
October 4, 2025 at 7:34 AM
it’s crazy how much of a hopeless failure i am
i never know what to say when people are like oh how come you don’t have a PCP or like get annual check-ups or something. it must be nice to not know what it feels like to not want to live, ever
September 16, 2025 at 10:24 PM
i never know what to say when people are like oh how come you don’t have a PCP or like get annual check-ups or something. it must be nice to not know what it feels like to not want to live, ever
getting more cynical and nihilist by the day 🥰
September 1, 2025 at 5:22 AM
getting more cynical and nihilist by the day 🥰
seeing other people’s discussion posts, maybe i really am too hard on myself, but compared to others i still stayed unemployed for too long and got basically nothing done in that time. there’s nothing that can help me heal from lost time
September 1, 2025 at 3:27 AM
seeing other people’s discussion posts, maybe i really am too hard on myself, but compared to others i still stayed unemployed for too long and got basically nothing done in that time. there’s nothing that can help me heal from lost time
it’d take a miracle to be hired at this point lol
August 31, 2025 at 8:58 AM
it’d take a miracle to be hired at this point lol
i think it’s over
August 22, 2025 at 10:40 AM
i think it’s over
maybe i’ll finally die this year
August 16, 2025 at 2:05 AM
maybe i’ll finally die this year
i guess i really am meant to fail with my personality and upbringing
August 10, 2025 at 5:06 PM
i guess i really am meant to fail with my personality and upbringing
praying i can find new academic or professional references within the next year cause my options rn……. mess
July 10, 2025 at 6:33 PM
praying i can find new academic or professional references within the next year cause my options rn……. mess
i wish i wasn’t such a coward so that i could just end it all
June 26, 2025 at 5:37 AM
i wish i wasn’t such a coward so that i could just end it all
the more i think and use others as a reference the more it’s apparent that something is wrong with me and what i’m doing and how i go about things.. and the more it makes sense for me to just die? like idk. i think it’s been too long. time to go
June 26, 2025 at 5:36 AM
the more i think and use others as a reference the more it’s apparent that something is wrong with me and what i’m doing and how i go about things.. and the more it makes sense for me to just die? like idk. i think it’s been too long. time to go
no seriously like let’s just all kill ourselves
June 25, 2025 at 9:47 AM
no seriously like let’s just all kill ourselves
trying to hold it together so i can make it past lab tomorrow but. um. wow. kinda wanna just lie down and pass away lol
June 25, 2025 at 3:37 AM
trying to hold it together so i can make it past lab tomorrow but. um. wow. kinda wanna just lie down and pass away lol
i don’t think i’m meant to break into any career or even past a job interview on my own terms and effort. genuinely think i should just die. should have been dead. but 18 years and counting and we’re still here for some reason
June 21, 2025 at 10:48 AM
i don’t think i’m meant to break into any career or even past a job interview on my own terms and effort. genuinely think i should just die. should have been dead. but 18 years and counting and we’re still here for some reason
cannot help but be bitter at myself cause i still don’t have a “career” that can sustain future endeavors. and the closest one (MLT) to my current goal would still take 2 years and relying on my cs background would slow me down on all fronts with no guarantee at a job. lol!
June 20, 2025 at 2:38 AM
cannot help but be bitter at myself cause i still don’t have a “career” that can sustain future endeavors. and the closest one (MLT) to my current goal would still take 2 years and relying on my cs background would slow me down on all fronts with no guarantee at a job. lol!
i think even if the pandemic didn’t happen, i’m still such a hopeless failure that the past 6 years would’ve happened anyway
June 19, 2025 at 10:38 AM
i think even if the pandemic didn’t happen, i’m still such a hopeless failure that the past 6 years would’ve happened anyway
if you didn’t grow up super social, outgoing, driven, etc. you should just die btw 🥰
June 17, 2025 at 11:07 AM
if you didn’t grow up super social, outgoing, driven, etc. you should just die btw 🥰
i always have a hard time researching academic/career paths because it involves being reminded of the fact that schools’ only solution to competition is to require 3 letters of recommendation from every applicant. it feels extremely unfair
June 17, 2025 at 11:02 AM
i always have a hard time researching academic/career paths because it involves being reminded of the fact that schools’ only solution to competition is to require 3 letters of recommendation from every applicant. it feels extremely unfair
lowkey a sexy lab director/doctor of a sugar daddy would fix 99% of my problems rn
June 15, 2025 at 4:16 AM
lowkey a sexy lab director/doctor of a sugar daddy would fix 99% of my problems rn
only a day later but like. wow. i honestly have no idea what to do now. i don’t want to be dramatic but i genuinely think dying would be much less troublesome than trying to navigate academia and careers. just need to get over that fear of death and then we’re set. no more worries
June 14, 2025 at 8:29 AM
only a day later but like. wow. i honestly have no idea what to do now. i don’t want to be dramatic but i genuinely think dying would be much less troublesome than trying to navigate academia and careers. just need to get over that fear of death and then we’re set. no more worries