Through all of this pain. Nothing seems to help anymore. Being around those closest to me seems to help but at the end of the day, it all comes back hitting me harder than the day before.

These thoughts hit me harder and harder everyday, and all I can do is just bottle it all up. I know you shouldn't bottle it. keeping my thoughts away from those close to me though is all I feel like I do and I want all this to stop but I've been so lost and trying to get