What a mood, for each thing i actually draw theres like five attempts deleted at best and its never the right posing/composition anyways

it's always framed as a stand-in for sex with a woman

kinda weird . Like the insistence the lights be kept off, that Alistair close his eyes. Or couslands attempts to avoid touching him, or making sounds. So it's a one-sided try to keep things anonymous, and from the guy who wants it most too. It's also a part of why Al doesn't realise shit, because

wanting and enjoying it. Alistair maybe isn't fully aware that he's even into men, still (very important to me that noone examines anything, I'll elaborate down the line), but he does know he's not trying to think about anyone else in particular (or at all) so the way cousland frames it makes things

you don't know whose touch you feel on your skin . Okay .