i have drawing ideas for my station gijinkas, i'm a bit artblocked about zenkichi but that's mostly because it's a deserted place to be, but i'm just... tired on doing it. so this time i try to "force" myself a bit to relax... experiment things i wanted to, draw things i wanted, etc etc

a bit of story. yesterday, i saw an anon confession asking, "i can work on comms etc, but i couldn't work on personal drawings. is it artblock?" most would probably think yes. but to me (also mostly work on comms over personal works), not really. i could have ideas but my energy's gone for comms

i'm sorry for your loss, gonna try passing this to my jayvik moot.

i like to think gala bunga matahari (lit. sunflower pageant) as the hasegawas. mainly because apparently aoi's kanji translates to hollyhock flower, and the song MV revolves on using sunflower as a device to talk with your loved ones that passed away. hollyhock pageant

could you possibly
come over to my place?
if you didn't look like yourself
then come as a sunflower
that suddenly blooms in my garden
that speaks in flora language
please tell me
how is your new home?

www.youtube.com/watch?v=AQpE...

more OC. surely giving the termination horror stations a special treatment (rare painting style)

honestly this is funny because i think twitter ATM is more fun because it's more active there, but what makes it active is also somewhat bane of my existance there (indonesians and autobases)

i do like being able to see some users that have left twitter for here though, like zenkichi's EN VA...... but at the moment my early hunch just ended up becoming true, being this site is just another "trash" to me. there's nothing to do here

made this thing primarily because twitter was so intensely heated and stressful. but i also later on end up deciding to never use it on mobile again, and next month would be a year since that. i feel way better ever since... still have the stupid lingering anxiety, but at least it's not 24/7.

like.... i don't even interact often here, anyway. pretty much how i used my tumblr too, i don't use that thing for interaction much. just post art and leave, occassionally stalk for gifsets