Penumbrial Ecosystem
@penumbrialecosys.bsky.social
25 | ND/AuDHD/OSDD | trans | artist | spiritual non-religious
A synthesis of a synesthetic symphony
This place will probably be a mix of art and mental health focus
Penumbrial.carrd.co
A synthesis of a synesthetic symphony
This place will probably be a mix of art and mental health focus
Penumbrial.carrd.co
I think denial is a defense mechanism that is sometimes necessary for systems in order to keep stable and keep afloat. So i dont think its healthy or safe for people to try to convince others logically that their denial is wrong. The system is using denial bc it NEEDS to. Its a way to survive.
November 11, 2025 at 8:59 PM
I think denial is a defense mechanism that is sometimes necessary for systems in order to keep stable and keep afloat. So i dont think its healthy or safe for people to try to convince others logically that their denial is wrong. The system is using denial bc it NEEDS to. Its a way to survive.
Opened tiktok and literally got fucking ten ads in a row.
November 7, 2025 at 11:30 PM
Opened tiktok and literally got fucking ten ads in a row.
Three of wands, seven of cups, the sun. What a great reading.
November 5, 2025 at 9:58 PM
Three of wands, seven of cups, the sun. What a great reading.
I wish endo systems who specifically identified as not having DID/OSDD/A dissociative system wouldnt use the term alters. Alters has such specific history and ties to DID/OSDD, using the term when you dont have those disorders trivializes and diminishes what alters are and how they form. Use parts
October 26, 2025 at 7:04 PM
I wish endo systems who specifically identified as not having DID/OSDD/A dissociative system wouldnt use the term alters. Alters has such specific history and ties to DID/OSDD, using the term when you dont have those disorders trivializes and diminishes what alters are and how they form. Use parts
I see so many people ask "how do i learn to draw this art style?" If you want to learn any art style - do copies! Copy their stuff! Dont promote or sell it or anything as if it were your own ofc. And use multiple artists. But its the same as doing master studies. #art
October 18, 2025 at 2:33 AM
I see so many people ask "how do i learn to draw this art style?" If you want to learn any art style - do copies! Copy their stuff! Dont promote or sell it or anything as if it were your own ofc. And use multiple artists. But its the same as doing master studies. #art
Dangit >.< was tryna buy the junji ito hobonichi. Was a fool and it sold out - i thought bc it was in my cart it would be safe but i was wrong! Even went and saved all the things i wanted to buy before the launch but it didnt save any of that stuff >.< got the weeks one at least but i really wanted
September 1, 2025 at 2:19 AM
Dangit >.< was tryna buy the junji ito hobonichi. Was a fool and it sold out - i thought bc it was in my cart it would be safe but i was wrong! Even went and saved all the things i wanted to buy before the launch but it didnt save any of that stuff >.< got the weeks one at least but i really wanted
New job!! First full day today and it was awesome i got to just be out in the big yard all day with the pups! Apparently most people dont enjoy that but i thought it was great - is sure a battle and dance of tryna clean everyones piss n shit while keepin em all in line too! But i get to draw during
August 30, 2025 at 10:03 PM
New job!! First full day today and it was awesome i got to just be out in the big yard all day with the pups! Apparently most people dont enjoy that but i thought it was great - is sure a battle and dance of tryna clean everyones piss n shit while keepin em all in line too! But i get to draw during
Its wild how quickly humanoid robots/androids are coming into being. Saw an article about scientists in japan utilizing quantum entanglement to streamline robotic movements - insane. Absolute insanity. Theres wetware - robots made from stem cells! And fuck i even saw news about chibese scientists
August 27, 2025 at 8:22 PM
Its wild how quickly humanoid robots/androids are coming into being. Saw an article about scientists in japan utilizing quantum entanglement to streamline robotic movements - insane. Absolute insanity. Theres wetware - robots made from stem cells! And fuck i even saw news about chibese scientists
Long day. Busy day. Great day. Loving the new job. Keeps me so busy. But ended up working i think 15 hours today total? Finishing up my last week at old job, and then came in and ended up staying late for the new job. Love that they even let me stay late tho. Old job seemed to want to pay absolute
August 27, 2025 at 4:53 AM
Long day. Busy day. Great day. Loving the new job. Keeps me so busy. But ended up working i think 15 hours today total? Finishing up my last week at old job, and then came in and ended up staying late for the new job. Love that they even let me stay late tho. Old job seemed to want to pay absolute
Just pulled Strength and The Sun again lol. I rarely see the sun. Have often recently been getting mostly minor arcana, swords and pentacles and cups - so seeing these powerful cards now, idek i just love tarot lol.
August 26, 2025 at 4:29 AM
Just pulled Strength and The Sun again lol. I rarely see the sun. Have often recently been getting mostly minor arcana, swords and pentacles and cups - so seeing these powerful cards now, idek i just love tarot lol.
I got it!!! I git the job!!! Im so happy its literally aligned with my special interest its a soggy boarding place and theyll let me draw the dogs while im working in the big yard and im so so so so so happy!!!! Literally feels like the stars aligned on this one - when i was going in for the first i
August 26, 2025 at 4:15 AM
I got it!!! I git the job!!! Im so happy its literally aligned with my special interest its a soggy boarding place and theyll let me draw the dogs while im working in the big yard and im so so so so so happy!!!! Literally feels like the stars aligned on this one - when i was going in for the first i
Job interview today!! Its the second one at this place!! I was so worried i messed up the first interview here i cried but that day actually they asked if i could come in for todays interview!! Im pumped! I know it will go well! We gotttt thisss >:]
August 23, 2025 at 1:49 PM
Job interview today!! Its the second one at this place!! I was so worried i messed up the first interview here i cried but that day actually they asked if i could come in for todays interview!! Im pumped! I know it will go well! We gotttt thisss >:]
Been struggling recently with memory resurfacing :/// not fun not fun. But watched a video from a clinician who put it like "disregulation is not a failure, its your system trusting you to show you what needs healing" and i really appreciated that. We are making progress. It just hurts. #osdd
August 16, 2025 at 10:07 PM
Been struggling recently with memory resurfacing :/// not fun not fun. But watched a video from a clinician who put it like "disregulation is not a failure, its your system trusting you to show you what needs healing" and i really appreciated that. We are making progress. It just hurts. #osdd
That ocd moment when your new(ish) therapist does an ocd assessment to assess your symptoms, and you go into it expecting them to say you no longer meet the criteria... until they tell you they think you Definitely meet the criteria... lol /T-T
August 13, 2025 at 11:47 PM
That ocd moment when your new(ish) therapist does an ocd assessment to assess your symptoms, and you go into it expecting them to say you no longer meet the criteria... until they tell you they think you Definitely meet the criteria... lol /T-T
Just applied for a new job..... had to do a whole forklift certification thing. Really really hoping i get it 🙏 better pay, work more up my alley. Really hoping things work out.
August 12, 2025 at 2:01 AM
Just applied for a new job..... had to do a whole forklift certification thing. Really really hoping i get it 🙏 better pay, work more up my alley. Really hoping things work out.
Im making a gesture drawing web app that will sync with pinterest so you can use your favorite pinterest boards for art study and photo reference easily! Pesturedrawing.com check it out! Still super rough, cant connect to pinterest yet (waiting on pinterest approval) but theres sample boards 2 use!
Gesture Drawing App (Mock)
Pesturedrawing.com
August 1, 2025 at 4:56 AM
Im making a gesture drawing web app that will sync with pinterest so you can use your favorite pinterest boards for art study and photo reference easily! Pesturedrawing.com check it out! Still super rough, cant connect to pinterest yet (waiting on pinterest approval) but theres sample boards 2 use!
I feel like we are rapidly approaching like android robots just in every day. Theyre making those like robots out of brain tissue?? Everything with the AI and LLMs, in grocery stores theres those stock keeping robots now? And those robots that have been seen literally running around cities. Insanity
July 30, 2025 at 3:35 AM
I feel like we are rapidly approaching like android robots just in every day. Theyre making those like robots out of brain tissue?? Everything with the AI and LLMs, in grocery stores theres those stock keeping robots now? And those robots that have been seen literally running around cities. Insanity
I hate my fucking job so much dude. Ive taken on so much shit. I just want to abandon it all. Its so fucking stupid. They fired all of upper management so everyone is scrambling. I have zero time to even think while im working. I just want to go back to warehouse work. I feel so alone. It is endless
July 29, 2025 at 10:26 PM
I hate my fucking job so much dude. Ive taken on so much shit. I just want to abandon it all. Its so fucking stupid. They fired all of upper management so everyone is scrambling. I have zero time to even think while im working. I just want to go back to warehouse work. I feel so alone. It is endless
Hi hello i really wanna idk. I wanna learn how to have fun posting on social media. I see so many people do it and they have fun with it - its always wrapped in so much fear for me. But ive been working on healing. I hage osdd and i get so locked down. Thats all for now i guess.
July 29, 2025 at 2:08 AM
Hi hello i really wanna idk. I wanna learn how to have fun posting on social media. I see so many people do it and they have fun with it - its always wrapped in so much fear for me. But ive been working on healing. I hage osdd and i get so locked down. Thats all for now i guess.
Ugh omg i wanna rant so in high school there was this like class play for japanese? class and i was grouped up with this guy call him staple idk. Staple and im pretty sure like the entire rest of my group was in theater. I was not. All the groups were given their scripts then sent off to practice.
July 27, 2025 at 2:22 AM
Ugh omg i wanna rant so in high school there was this like class play for japanese? class and i was grouped up with this guy call him staple idk. Staple and im pretty sure like the entire rest of my group was in theater. I was not. All the groups were given their scripts then sent off to practice.
Man this site really makes me realize how asexual a lot of my system is lmao
July 27, 2025 at 1:22 AM
Man this site really makes me realize how asexual a lot of my system is lmao
Im making a gesture drawing app you can link to a pinterest board that will display random images from that board for a set amount of time like in line of action!!! Just waiting for pinterest to approve my thing. Im so excited!! Its still super duper rough but im doing it!! Nvr done smthn lyk dis b4
July 27, 2025 at 12:53 AM
Im making a gesture drawing app you can link to a pinterest board that will display random images from that board for a set amount of time like in line of action!!! Just waiting for pinterest to approve my thing. Im so excited!! Its still super duper rough but im doing it!! Nvr done smthn lyk dis b4
Man i wish the dissociasky thing wasnt so full of endo plurals and fetish stuff. I just want a space i can relate to other dissociative systems :/ if anyone has recommendations please let me know. It is so lonely sometimes. So isolating.
July 26, 2025 at 1:43 PM
Man i wish the dissociasky thing wasnt so full of endo plurals and fetish stuff. I just want a space i can relate to other dissociative systems :/ if anyone has recommendations please let me know. It is so lonely sometimes. So isolating.
Ive been exercising daily, (just 12-15 minutes rowing), doing my daily japanese study, and brushing my teeth 2x a day, and doing daily tarot for a bit now!! And making progress worldbuilding! Things are good :)
Whats really been helping has been my new remarkable and Bitcraft! I can do my
Whats really been helping has been my new remarkable and Bitcraft! I can do my
June 26, 2025 at 6:02 PM
Ive been exercising daily, (just 12-15 minutes rowing), doing my daily japanese study, and brushing my teeth 2x a day, and doing daily tarot for a bit now!! And making progress worldbuilding! Things are good :)
Whats really been helping has been my new remarkable and Bitcraft! I can do my
Whats really been helping has been my new remarkable and Bitcraft! I can do my