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Im not sure what possessed me to type all this out when I should be sleeping but if your reading this still. Thank you for taking the time to read this & if weve ever interacted thank you for being kind to me. It means more than you know. If your a oomf or friend thank you for accepting me.

Its hard not to feel a little lonely this time of year, in a lot of ways its hard not to think about how loneliness is the whole reason im here at all…

I think in all my time here ive only celebrated my streamiversary once because it reminds me of all those things

People I could be myself around.

Over these last couple of years a lot has changed. Ive met some amazing people, Made some friends i hope to keep for a long time, as well as watched this space become something i hardly recognize at times…

All that said im glad to be here and yet…

And i just wanted to be like them. So many people had their stories of being isolated or just feeling out of place and yet they found a community and gained more confidence in themselves.

I always felt like i never quite fit anywhere i went so i wanted to create my own space and try to find

Suddenly i had a lot of time on my hands and i received some money from my grandmothers passing so i decided to invest in my first PC.

I really had no idea what I was doing but I knew i really enjoyed the whole Vtuber space, there was so many talented and funny people

Basically at a certain point when I wasn’t working or protesting i was watching twitch on my phone. Then my Father and grandmother both passed away in the matter of a few days.

This was late in 2021 and the pandemic was in full swing still so i was barely working

That would make me laugh and get myself away from politics for a little while and decided to watch an old nyanners video that always made me laugh and stumbled across her stream clips and quickly became hooked, then I discovered mousey and Melody and eventually started watching their streams

Next month will also be my 4 year streamiversary.

As weird as it may be it was actually the combination of these events that led to me starting streaming in the first place.

I discovered vtubing completely by accident one night after a protest because i wanted to find something to watch

Straight up NNN was popularized by folks in the manosphere as well as pseudoscientific wellness communities as well as is a practice that people in spaces such as whitesupremicist circles such as the Proud Boys as a part of their tactics to target emotionally vulnerable dejected young men

Its soo good shay ahhh

You can do it girl!