Yeah sadly. Things are just a lot right now. 😔

I hate complaining about my problems because I feel like I’m just wasting my breath on something I need to just figure out myself. I guess vocalizing and sharing it with others eases the burden, but I feel like I’m just shifting burden from myself to others.

I’m just kinda rambling now 😅

Not to sound melodramatic or anything, but I’m kinda used to it at this point. I think what upsets me the most when I stop to think about it is that it’s not the feeling of loneliness that upsets me, but rather the fact I’ve grown so used to it and just kind of accept it.

It still sucks though.

But it still doesn’t make it easier?

I dunno. I just also feel a bit isolated nowadays, maybe some of it is self imposed. But I definitely don’t feel socially fulfilled lately either.

Ahh thoughts are being unreasonable right now. I’m gonna just go back to Elden Ring.

I’ve been trying both and it helped for a while but now I’m just falling back to square one.

I hope things get better for the both of us😣

I appreciate it. Sure, I’m open to hearing what worked for others.

I wish I can just find what drove me in the first place again.

I know it will, but Jesus it’s just so hard to stick to a routine right now and I can’t afford working with someone. I miss powerlifting and how it made me feel but I can’t even pull myself to get back into the routine for longer than maybe a week before I fall off

Modders I only have one request.