I miss u so much beebs 💔

My twin is grieving. I've been dissociative for 48 hours due to the pet situation. And in all their senile cruelty, my parents lock me out with no regard for my wellbeing. All because I called them out for accosting my grieving sister. Haven't slept. Their lack of humanity sickens me.

I've had sleep issues since I was very young, so I wouldn't be surprised if it was something genetic. But posing it as me staying up purpose is just..not true?? I'm tired 24/7..why on earth would the idea of WILLINGLY tiring myself be the conclusion 🤦

Like are we being deadass..don't you think I've tried this countless times before?? If I didn't have chronic sleep issues, that clearly would've worked 🙄
That and them say "having to take sleep meds is bad"
Meanwhile being prescribed sleep meds is the only time I get good sleep..

Long ass thread just to say: I'm over it. I don't have time or energy for mind games if I'm owed an apology. I just want consistency and accountability.

I'm just so sick of it bc if I hurt someone I do whatever it takes to make it up to them and I barely even get considered in return. The most I get is "I'm sorry you feel that way" which is a non apology. And this is why ppl who can't take accountability don't stay long in my life.

This goes for like, 99% of my interpersonal relationships. People I know and even my own family acts like "oh, enough time has pased, get over it" but like..no?? I'm allowed to respond to emotional hurt and abandonment. It's not my job to soothe anyone's else's guilt for what they've done :/

Bonus doodle

Hitting him with the "inflicting him w current issues I'm struggling w as an outlet and self expression" beam