Ofc ge also moved ib today fuck i fucking hatebhim

I fucking hate him j hate him inhate him k hate him he should go fuckijg die

Literally anyone if you see this. I just want to feel seen in my hated for this man. I need to just rant about all the shit he did. He was in our life and my bfs life for like 4 months and caused irreparable damage to us both.

I just start seething anytime i hear about or remember him

I just remembered he existed. I need to fucking kill him he needs to be dead i fucking hate him . Kick him out of college put him on the fucking sex offender registry. I fucking hate him i hate him if i see him tomorrow i will freak out. Hes done so many things to me and people close to us

I love how whenever we walk into this room its a 50/50 chance if we have violent flashbacks or not. Yay.

Ripping out my hair why do people think this is funny. We probably have ocd and have a SHIT ton of paranoia. Especially about being followed. We have almost crashed our car. Gone into full hyperventilation panic attacks and did dangerous driving bc we thought we were being followed (1/?)

God i want to medically transition right tf now. I will crash out. Top surgery stat. More masculine face right tf now. Deeper voice immediately. I just want to be seen as a boy is that too much to ask

Im so fucking lazy omg .

That moment when depression and sensory issues means you haven’t brushed your teeth in months lmao . I feel gross. Im goibg to try and brush them in a bit. But one part kf our gums started swelling and bleeding so. I think thats a sign. We have gingivitis so our gums swell alot this shit sucks

We accidentally lost like 40 pounds in a month. 20 was bc we were sick and ate nothing but soft noodles and yogurt for a week. And even then it was maybe a meal a day. And the other 20 was bc holy shit our parents house has no food. Take me back to college omg

Its funny how we got the asexual hyposexual trauma response but still get really intense intrusive thoughts and random acespikes and then we feel like absolute shit and like a little freak. Guys you cant have all the trauma responses calm tf down

Staying up all night to fix our sleep schedule is a very good idea and it will work without backfiring trust me

Weve been having a shit ton of assault flashbacks recently very silly definitely not making us want to rip our skin off and hide away in corners never to be touched by anyone again ever

Wow first time venting in this acc kinda nervous/j

We are mentally fucked yay

Account TWs:

Suicide
SH
SA/Assault/Rape
Familial Abuse
Physical Abuse and Violence
Emotional Abuse
Manipulation
Gore/Graphic descriptions
Severe Dysphoria and Dysmorphia
ED/Diet Culture
Religious Trauma
Extreme Paranoia

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