Instead of doing for the audiences. I’m willing to try new things I wanna do in my work instead of wailing and kicking myself for being an unimaginative and talentless artist. I hate to go back there again to advertise my new work but I know that’s the place people will see me the most

My crave and I will feel like shit later since it’s unnecessary and cringe, and I care too much about number on a platform owned by fascist billionaire whom I despise. When I stop using twitter I realize I spent more time improving my works and doing art the way I like—

I could have used to improve myself and what I truly cherish because when I have a taste of people liking me I’m so desperate to have that feeling again. Whenever I go back there I am in severe distress because I know I could have that. It’s anxiety inducing. I will post something stupid to fix—