sorry bullshit is all i have to post about lately

i can't think straight and being trapped with a bunch of suddenly-lost loved ones is doing silly little things to my head (negativity posting) (i should stop) (i wanna give myself good things to look forward to so i can stop) (my nervous system literally needs consistent doses of meds for that)

yeeeesssssssss i'm literally in vc w/ buddha rn he's saying i'm mature for my age 🙂‍↕️

yesssssssss

GO

good life check: i have really cute cats, a girlfriend, good passive income that i can take care of myself with and my hands haven't fallen off

otherwise i have nothing to post about. still.

dw, i'm fine now (my gf is taking good care of me lol). i'm just all stupid and sheepish about acting like an insane person for so long. i'm mad that my creativity is still depressed, but it is coming back.

anyways

but i'm exhausted from having a physiological disability brought on by trauma and i'm busy fixing the art-making machine in my head, so all i have is short-form bias on the matter.

i've been interested by how late-stage capitalism and the small business fad is affecting the social culture around art and entertainment, specifically because we have more scientific understandings of what trauma technically is and how mental health contributes to physiological health nowadays.

so now there's a lot of conversations online about parasociality, power dynamics between fans and their idols, accountability, respecting the real-world while working in the fictional, i'm running out of clarity juice for this topic and my gf wants to show me something so i'll wrap this up messily