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Call me Coyote| They/them| Late 30s| BlackNDN| Blackfeet| 2S| Queer as in fk you| Kemetic| Actually Autistic| Exvangelical| Schizo-spec and hella open about it| Professional Halloween Scientist| Useless Gay Vampire| Polyamorous disaster
Ty! Yeah I use DuckDuckGo (DDG) almost exclusively since Google won’t let you opt out of its AI popping up in your search results. DDG allows AI in the search results, but you can turn it off (with marginal success—I think it just excludes content from AI sites) and it doesn’t have an AI assistant
November 21, 2025 at 6:08 PM
Ty! Yeah I use DuckDuckGo (DDG) almost exclusively since Google won’t let you opt out of its AI popping up in your search results. DDG allows AI in the search results, but you can turn it off (with marginal success—I think it just excludes content from AI sites) and it doesn’t have an AI assistant
Thank you, that’s what I was thinking too! Idk if they just AI that shit now though 🫠 Imma have to DDG a site to test my typing speed since I don’t remember what it is—hopefully it’s still a thing enough that it doesn’t have to be in person
November 21, 2025 at 5:58 PM
Thank you, that’s what I was thinking too! Idk if they just AI that shit now though 🫠 Imma have to DDG a site to test my typing speed since I don’t remember what it is—hopefully it’s still a thing enough that it doesn’t have to be in person
Do that doesn’t require office visits? Do they just AI that shit now idek 😭
I wanna scream. I feel so fkn useless the majority of the time but I’m feeling that shit ACUTELY right now
I wanna scream. I feel so fkn useless the majority of the time but I’m feeling that shit ACUTELY right now
November 21, 2025 at 5:48 PM
Do that doesn’t require office visits? Do they just AI that shit now idek 😭
I wanna scream. I feel so fkn useless the majority of the time but I’m feeling that shit ACUTELY right now
I wanna scream. I feel so fkn useless the majority of the time but I’m feeling that shit ACUTELY right now
And this is something I’ve been afraid of from the start. But with how out of control my symptoms were getting and how badly they’ve persisted even as I’ve done a lot of recovery and made a lot of progress, it’s genuinely been necessary that I don’t work. Maybe there’s some kind of data entry I can
November 21, 2025 at 5:48 PM
And this is something I’ve been afraid of from the start. But with how out of control my symptoms were getting and how badly they’ve persisted even as I’ve done a lot of recovery and made a lot of progress, it’s genuinely been necessary that I don’t work. Maybe there’s some kind of data entry I can
I also haven’t worked for 10+yrs already. Not for lack of desire to, I actually really WANT to work I’m just…Anyway. Idk how to explain that gap outside “illness” which sets me up for rejection based on the ongoing chronic nature of the “illness(es)” even if I don’t disclose specifics
November 21, 2025 at 5:48 PM
I also haven’t worked for 10+yrs already. Not for lack of desire to, I actually really WANT to work I’m just…Anyway. Idk how to explain that gap outside “illness” which sets me up for rejection based on the ongoing chronic nature of the “illness(es)” even if I don’t disclose specifics
But also I know myself well enough to know that if there’s no other options and it would help, I’ll jump headfirst back into being one of the compartmentalization world champs and I know in the long run that would fuck up so much about the therapeutic work I’ve been doing etc etc
November 21, 2025 at 5:48 PM
But also I know myself well enough to know that if there’s no other options and it would help, I’ll jump headfirst back into being one of the compartmentalization world champs and I know in the long run that would fuck up so much about the therapeutic work I’ve been doing etc etc
I’m not gonna lie, I WILL; but I don’t WANT to. I’d prefer not to. I’m not great at dealing with me and Gf A freaking out at the same time so I’d love to avoid that as much as I’d love to not reinforce coping mechanisms that are hella maladaptive now and have been working my ass off to unlearn
November 21, 2025 at 5:48 PM
I’m not gonna lie, I WILL; but I don’t WANT to. I’d prefer not to. I’m not great at dealing with me and Gf A freaking out at the same time so I’d love to avoid that as much as I’d love to not reinforce coping mechanisms that are hella maladaptive now and have been working my ass off to unlearn
I text my therapist too bc she has knowledge/access to resources I don’t and knows what my restrictions are like so I’m also understanding that she may tell me there ARE resources but it would be pointless for me to try to use them unless I wanted to fuck myself over mentally. Which I don’t. I mean
November 21, 2025 at 5:48 PM
I text my therapist too bc she has knowledge/access to resources I don’t and knows what my restrictions are like so I’m also understanding that she may tell me there ARE resources but it would be pointless for me to try to use them unless I wanted to fuck myself over mentally. Which I don’t. I mean
We’re so fucked and I can’t even really help or we’ll be more fucked
Does ANYONE know of any kind of job that doesn’t require in person or over the phone work? Or minimal over the phone work, like I couldn’t be a telemarketer
Does ANYONE know of any kind of job that doesn’t require in person or over the phone work? Or minimal over the phone work, like I couldn’t be a telemarketer
November 21, 2025 at 5:17 PM
We’re so fucked and I can’t even really help or we’ll be more fucked
Does ANYONE know of any kind of job that doesn’t require in person or over the phone work? Or minimal over the phone work, like I couldn’t be a telemarketer
Does ANYONE know of any kind of job that doesn’t require in person or over the phone work? Or minimal over the phone work, like I couldn’t be a telemarketer
Situation has NOT been helping and now they spring this shit on her?! Like? And it’s not like this is a corporate issue. This is a local business with a long history of positive community involvement. I don’t know how to help here and I don’t know what’s going to happen w her
God, we’re so fucked
God, we’re so fucked
November 21, 2025 at 5:17 PM
Situation has NOT been helping and now they spring this shit on her?! Like? And it’s not like this is a corporate issue. This is a local business with a long history of positive community involvement. I don’t know how to help here and I don’t know what’s going to happen w her
God, we’re so fucked
God, we’re so fucked
Hers which they’d done for a couple other people so it’s not like it was special but now they’re saying she has to reapply or stay laid off when that happens in a couple months. She’s hanging on by a pretty thick thread but a thread nonetheless and has been for a couple years now and this whole
November 21, 2025 at 5:17 PM
Hers which they’d done for a couple other people so it’s not like it was special but now they’re saying she has to reapply or stay laid off when that happens in a couple months. She’s hanging on by a pretty thick thread but a thread nonetheless and has been for a couple years now and this whole
Her boss who we thought was friendly if not an actual friend, is leaving bc he’s overwhelmed as hell with this place and Gf A was blindsided in a fkd up way by that (which he apologized for) but then made it seem like it was a foregone conclusion that the new position they’re folding her job into is
November 21, 2025 at 5:17 PM
Her boss who we thought was friendly if not an actual friend, is leaving bc he’s overwhelmed as hell with this place and Gf A was blindsided in a fkd up way by that (which he apologized for) but then made it seem like it was a foregone conclusion that the new position they’re folding her job into is
Her calling herself incompetent and like they won’t just lay her off early bc they’re hoping to shorten the gap between laying her off and replacing her. And it’s like?! If she were incompetent they wouldn’t lean so goddamn hard on her doing beyond her job and NOBODY ever talked her about shit!
November 21, 2025 at 5:17 PM
Her calling herself incompetent and like they won’t just lay her off early bc they’re hoping to shorten the gap between laying her off and replacing her. And it’s like?! If she were incompetent they wouldn’t lean so goddamn hard on her doing beyond her job and NOBODY ever talked her about shit!
PAY for it when the average person who does commissions is already not exactly rolling in dough from it AND they’re at a higher technical level skill-wise?
This sucks so fucking bad just in general but I’m also really worried about Gf A. She LOVES this job and she’s GREAT at it but now they got
This sucks so fucking bad just in general but I’m also really worried about Gf A. She LOVES this job and she’s GREAT at it but now they got
November 21, 2025 at 5:17 PM
PAY for it when the average person who does commissions is already not exactly rolling in dough from it AND they’re at a higher technical level skill-wise?
This sucks so fucking bad just in general but I’m also really worried about Gf A. She LOVES this job and she’s GREAT at it but now they got
This sucks so fucking bad just in general but I’m also really worried about Gf A. She LOVES this job and she’s GREAT at it but now they got
Places to live. I absolutely cannot do phone or in person work so wtf does that even leave? My therapist has been pushing me to set up some kinda art shop but I can’t even get mfrs to engage with art when I post it to the point I don’t really post it anymore so how the fuck could I get ppl to
November 21, 2025 at 5:17 PM
Places to live. I absolutely cannot do phone or in person work so wtf does that even leave? My therapist has been pushing me to set up some kinda art shop but I can’t even get mfrs to engage with art when I post it to the point I don’t really post it anymore so how the fuck could I get ppl to
Kind of job I could get that could help? Like what if I didn’t keep any of the money? It’s not like I’d be trying to work to get savings, I don’t have that and can’t afford to start having it. We already struggle bc it’s not like she makes a ton of money and this is one of the most expensive
November 21, 2025 at 5:17 PM
Kind of job I could get that could help? Like what if I didn’t keep any of the money? It’s not like I’d be trying to work to get savings, I don’t have that and can’t afford to start having it. We already struggle bc it’s not like she makes a ton of money and this is one of the most expensive
I’m still on disability and I’m not allowed to have more than $2K at once or I lose it or get it truncated which has never been an issue bc disability pays shit and literally all my money plus extra from support my pops has to cover goes toward my treatment and bills but like, surely there’s some
November 21, 2025 at 5:17 PM
I’m still on disability and I’m not allowed to have more than $2K at once or I lose it or get it truncated which has never been an issue bc disability pays shit and literally all my money plus extra from support my pops has to cover goes toward my treatment and bills but like, surely there’s some
Literally tired. Exhausted. And bc of my fibro I wouldn’t even be able to sleep all day even if I COULD
I know that this isn’t how medication works but Gawddamn I wish that shit obliterated symptoms entirely. I know it’s manageable bc I’m not gonna take myself of the census or intentionally SH but🙃
I know that this isn’t how medication works but Gawddamn I wish that shit obliterated symptoms entirely. I know it’s manageable bc I’m not gonna take myself of the census or intentionally SH but🙃
November 11, 2025 at 5:12 PM
Literally tired. Exhausted. And bc of my fibro I wouldn’t even be able to sleep all day even if I COULD
I know that this isn’t how medication works but Gawddamn I wish that shit obliterated symptoms entirely. I know it’s manageable bc I’m not gonna take myself of the census or intentionally SH but🙃
I know that this isn’t how medication works but Gawddamn I wish that shit obliterated symptoms entirely. I know it’s manageable bc I’m not gonna take myself of the census or intentionally SH but🙃
A bunch of shit I should be or need to be on account of other symptoms beating my ass. Like holy shit the stress of having to urge surf through this constantly is exhausting. I’m TIRED. But I didn’t get sleep all the time depression, I got insomnia depression so it doesn’t even matter that I’m
November 11, 2025 at 5:12 PM
A bunch of shit I should be or need to be on account of other symptoms beating my ass. Like holy shit the stress of having to urge surf through this constantly is exhausting. I’m TIRED. But I didn’t get sleep all the time depression, I got insomnia depression so it doesn’t even matter that I’m
But I’ll be damned if I fuckin salinate the inside of my contacts again and then have a migraine on top of it bc I have to wear my glasses. Hate this shit. Serves absolutely no purpose but to make me a fuckin asshole throwing constant pity parties and I already feel
Guilty enough for not doing
Guilty enough for not doing
November 11, 2025 at 5:12 PM
But I’ll be damned if I fuckin salinate the inside of my contacts again and then have a migraine on top of it bc I have to wear my glasses. Hate this shit. Serves absolutely no purpose but to make me a fuckin asshole throwing constant pity parties and I already feel
Guilty enough for not doing
Guilty enough for not doing
So I can try to hurry up and get all my sobbing out before my sick gf wakes up and sees I’m losin it and stresses bc there’s literally no way to make it better? Fuck offfffff
Anyway; haven’t cried since I woke up even though my body is trying to convince me that should be most of today’s agenda
Anyway; haven’t cried since I woke up even though my body is trying to convince me that should be most of today’s agenda
November 11, 2025 at 5:12 PM
So I can try to hurry up and get all my sobbing out before my sick gf wakes up and sees I’m losin it and stresses bc there’s literally no way to make it better? Fuck offfffff
Anyway; haven’t cried since I woke up even though my body is trying to convince me that should be most of today’s agenda
Anyway; haven’t cried since I woke up even though my body is trying to convince me that should be most of today’s agenda