(7) harder to be focused and mentally stable at school and after school care, and it’s gonna be hard not to get tired and grumpy and snap at the kids or my coworkers, or have a _fucking mental breakdown_
But I can’t really afford to bc if I take a day off work that’s like $250 a day gone so 🤠 fuckme

(6)
I’m
Honestly not sure how long I can keep doing this… if he doesn’t find a job within the next month we’re pretty much fucked, and he’s gonna end up wracking up more debt against me and honestly I might just fuckin end it cause I can’t keep doing this shit. Which is gonna make life so much

(5) or is fuckin button smashing his computer keyboard playing LoL or YELLING at his computer

(4)
- I’ve been having trouble sleeping because damian hasn’t been working so he hasn’t been tired enough at night to come to bed, so he stays up until either 4am ish or until 6:30 when I wake up. And I find it hard to sleep when he’s not in the bed, especially when I know he might come sleep later

(3)
- I’m up at 5.20am writing this (but was awake at 4:30) because damian was fuckin yelling at his computer playing stupidass league of legends like a weeb. So I decided to get up and do the dishwasher and clean the bench like he should’ve done during the day 🫠🥴

(2)
- I’ve finally started working at the new afterschool care programme, pretty much from 2.25 to 5.45 each evening, which eventually equates to me working a 40-44 hour week including schoolwork hours. Great for the money bc damian isn’t earning atm, but tiring and stressful for me 🫠

I definitely feel a lot happier in our new house though since we moved in December. Things are going nicely!
We just need to start exercising, eating healthy, save more money, find Damian another job he doesn’t hate, and get him a car

Would be interesting to see how many notes would be in a sad jar too
Or get a bigger jar, and pick one colour for good stuff, one colour for not so good stuff

(2) but then fuckin 🐉‘s bitch gf said “oh we can just drop him home bc he lives round the corner from us,” when I also live round the corner from him??? And he’d already organised to go with me?? But he thought Damo might not drop him at his place so he’d have to walk, so he went with them instead

🐢 - my bf Damian/Damo

I play magic the gathering and warhammer 40k RPG with these nerds:
👾 - Alex, oldest triplet
⚔️ - William, middle triplet
💫 - Orion, youngest triplet
🐉 - Manaaki