I keep expecting to wake up. To my brother being alive. To him posting his stupid ass Snapchat’s. How the fuck is this the reality I’m in?

He turned 25 _sixteen days_ after I turn 30.

5 years and 16 days apart, exactly.

Gone. Just gone.

Dealing with my mental health has been really, really hard. I’m not very vocal about it but dude, I’m fucking struggling. I’m drowning, with little to no support system in place. I don’t even know what to do anymore.

I have spent the last idk like hour and a half crying off and on because of how heavy this sadness is.

Being mentally ill sucks!

Dog this depression streak I’m in has hands. I’ve legit not felt this bad in ages, and it feels like I am just,, not great!

there’s so much going on for me rn I think my brain is actively on fire but this is fine

I loveee dealing with a crippling sense of loneliness so heavy I can’t talk to anyone about it, cause that seasonal depression do be hittin different 💀

my house is cold for the first time in months and my bones are not handling this well.

i am curled like a RAT in my pc chair

i have to find my weird little internet friends on this app and use the sky bridger thing

BUT ALSO

i want to find new people to follow!

🔶 I’m doing an autumn give-away 🔶
Win a mini diploma, either for DM or GM.
Ends 20th of Oct. I offer international shipping.

Requires;
🔸 A follow
🔸 A share
🔸 And then tell me who deserves this diploma (you can nominate yourself ofc.)

Good luck 🧡

talking to me like talking to a very discombobulated bird.

i have zero idea what's happening at any point in time for the rest of forever

Anyways I’m not being sad on main, hi I’m finally using my Bluesky, I have 2 stinky cats, this one is Bluerberry Dippin Dots (ddot for short), she is filled with many incorrect opinions and demands love at the worst times (usually when I’m at my desk)