I really don't know how else to say this but I have genuinely lost my will to live

I just kinda wanna feel

//TW: blood, intestines

Frustration actually just getting to me like this

god I'm starting to go back onto another depressive episode

//TW: self harm, attempt

This art style and character would most likely make me more recognizable but I really don't have the energy to continue drawing in a more detailed style every time I feel like shit.

//TW: Gore

I've never actually done any direct self harm (cutting specifically), but I've always been self destructive.

I don't feed myself often, I forget to. I do things that harm my body and would eventually slowly kill me.
Of course I'm aware I shouldn't, but at this point it's become habit.

//TW: Body horror, nudity, eyestrain colors (?)

I'm not really the best at this kind of stuff, but I'm starting to feel a sense of relief after drawing so much

//TW: Body horror, nudity

Metamorphosis

//TW: (I'm not actually sure what to tag this) body horror (?)

Shed your dead skin, become who you truly are underneath.

Beautiful.

//TW: gore, nudity

I seem to find it fascinating, to open your heart and watch as angels are exposed on your ribs.

Going to repost all my stuff real quick
I realized I should use warnings or something yk

No one really sees my account but it's more of a "just in case"

If I'm being honest, I've always had suicidal thoughts ever since I was young but I never went through with any of them, sure there have been attempts but not anymore.
Back then it was because I thought of the people around me. But nowadays it's because even killing myself feels like a chore.

I'm sort of tired. And recently I've been dwindling further into depression. I want to be sad, but being sad is hard when you make your friends sad when you make stuff like this.