is it lined in plastic??? 🤢

I just finished this book and it was one of the most beautifully devastating books I’ve ever read. I’ll never get it out of my head, and you know who else is in there? Jayvik. So CMBYN is getting jayvikked to the max

so he says nothing. he tells his boyfriend that they’re the best ones yet, and gives him a thumbs-up when jayce turns to upload them for his fans.

he hates that his boyfriend is a pornstar. but he hates sundays even more.

so he says nothing when jayce is done and comes back to show him the edited photos. jayce looks great—he always does. and viktor would give anything for him to send the file to his own computer instead of uploading them for everyone to see, but he won’t. it’s not what they’re for

he’ll be busy for an hour or two. he always is. and this is when viktor feels the most alone. the most trapped. he cries and cries and wishes that jayce would quit his job and go back to grad school like he was before, but the thought makes viktor feel guilty and selfish.