I can count on one hand the amount of times I’ve hung out with friends this year. Jesus.

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Me: why do I feel so incredibly irritable?

Me: …..oh that’s why

😭

Like I’m on the hook for so much money, and while legally he is attached on the lease and could be on the hook as well, I’m choosing not to bother him with it. Like. I’m sorry but your credit score is not even in the top ten of my list of concerns right now

and I’m gonna have to see him again for him to finish picking up his shit, and I’m sure he’ll be just as pleasant 🙄)

I also had to see them the other day and was normal about it, but they were majorly pissy the whole time which, yeah, breakups are hard, but the fact that he was pissy at me because I’m dating someone else after HE broke up with ME is so telling

I just spent ten years in a relationship with almost no emotional support whatsoever for the past 5 years, and the fact that I KNOW I’d be way worse off mentally in this position if I were still with them is so telling

not feel great to go a week and then realize I haven’t heard anything from any of them 😅)

(It’s also not like I left to provoke any sort of reaction or to worry my friends or “test” them in any way, absolutely not, and I’ll probably add them to a different group chat soon and be like “hey, I left for this reason, but still wanna talk to ya’ll regularly so here we go”, but it does—

I haven’t left my place in a week, and I wanna do stuff but I have no money and I’m trying to get stuff together to move and need to get rid of so much junk and I’m TIRED

I haven’t heard from any of them since, except one, and they were helping me with a photo shoot completely unrelated to anything and didn’t bring it up, so my money is on “no one saw because I rarely posted on there anyway” but ughhh it feels shitty